Lyrics
Keep me silent, keep me empty
Expressing a desire to be kept quiet and devoid of emotions.
Ain't no words to save me here
Feeling that there are no words or expressions that can rescue or help.
Pissed the cat off, I'm alone now
Having upset someone (symbolized by the cat) and now feeling isolated.
Ain't no nothing for me here
Emphasizing the absence of anything significant in the current situation.
Wish that I could close my ears the way you close your eyes
Yearning for the ability to block out unwanted sounds, drawing a parallel to closing one's eyes.
Now a bomb's gone off behind my ribs
Describing an internal explosion or intense emotional experience.
Just the shame I inherited like a muzzle to my mouth
Referring to inherited shame as a restriction on self-expression.
Holds my guts back from boiling out
Feeling constrained by shame, preventing genuine emotions from surfacing.
Read a promo in the paper
Encountering a promotional ad about joining a monastery, considering a different path.
"Monastery Seeks Acolytes"
Expressing skepticism about being suitable for a monastic life.
But you know I'd make a bad ascetic, baby
Inviting someone to meet at a symbolic location despite personal shortcomings.
So meet me at the lotus pond tonight
Suggesting a desire to revisit a past moment of happiness (lotus pond).
Still, if I had a time machine I'd plot a course for the garden
Expressing regret and a hypothetical wish to alter the past with a time machine.
Where two lovers first embraced
Referencing a specific moment of intimacy between two lovers.
In a frenzy I would rush them, scream "you're making a mistake"
Imagining intervening in the past to prevent a perceived mistake in love.
But they'd have no eyes for me; I'd be too late
Realizing the futility of intervening too late in past events.
And these days every little death
Reflecting on the cumulative impact of life's small losses and challenges.
Feels like slipping towards the big one
Feeling like every minor setback is leading towards a major, inevitable downfall.
A spinning coin, one side marked pride and the other marked disgrace
Metaphorically comparing life's uncertainties to a spinning coin with two sides: pride and disgrace.
But in the moonlit flurry the faces look the same
Observing that, in difficult times, everyone's faces appear the same in the moonlight.
Oh, no
Expressing concern or realization about a challenging situation.
If you need a fix, well, baby, you know I got it
Offering a solution or support to someone in need.
But I got some time to kill as well if you want it
Acknowledging the availability of time but also recognizing shared difficulties ahead.
Cuz after this we'll still both be lost and broke
Anticipating continued struggles and financial challenges despite mutual support.
We don't have to go back to living alone
Rejecting the idea of returning to a life of isolation after shared experiences.
But at the end of the day I didn't ask for this body
Expressing discontent with one's own body and circumstances.
No, I never asked for any part of this
Rejecting any responsibility or desire for the current state of being.
It fires the heart; heart cooks brain
Describing the intense connection between emotions and physical reactions.
Unbidden bellows feed the flame
Unwanted emotions intensifying and fueling inner turmoil.
I'm beaten, blind, flayed to the quick
Portraying a state of vulnerability and emotional exhaustion.
Come on, touch me, I'm sick
Inviting physical contact as a way to cope with emotional pain.
There's no room in hell for wanting
Stating a belief that there is no space in hell for desires or longings.
Wanting summons hell up here
Highlighting the paradoxical nature of longing, suggesting it brings hell into one's experience.
Keep me silent, keep me empty
Reiterating a desire to remain silent and emotionally detached.
Ain't no words to save me here
Reiterating the belief that there are no words to rescue the current situation.
Oh, no
Concluding with a sense of despair or resignation.
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