Lyrics
Everyday things get a little better
There's a gradual improvement in daily life.
Lithium and cigarettes together
Using lithium (a medication for bipolar disorder) and cigarettes concurrently.
I think I might be almost back to normal
Feeling close to returning to a state of normalcy.
The last year or two have been pretty fucking horrible
Expressing the past couple of years as extremely difficult.
Lithium is my best friend now
Lithium has become a crucial part of life, albeit sometimes disliked.
I hate it sometimes, but that's just how it is
Despite resenting it at times, accepting the necessity of lithium.
Three times a day for the rest of my life now
Having to take lithium three times daily indefinitely.
I can't think about it because that's just how it is
Ignoring thoughts about the perpetual need for medication.
Although I feel fine, I miss the rush
Although stable, missing the exhilarating highs of mania.
A million trillion ideas all at once
Experiencing a flood of overwhelming ideas simultaneously.
The other day I skipped my antipsychotic
Skipping prescribed antipsychotic medication due to loneliness.
I was lonely and I wanted someone to talk with
Desiring companionship and connection, leading to the decision to skip medication.
Lithium is my best friend now
Reiteration of lithium's importance, despite occasional dislike.
I hate it sometimes, but that's just how it is
Continuing to acknowledge the ambivalence towards lithium.
Three times a day for the rest of my life now
Referencing the long-term commitment to thrice-daily lithium intake.
I can't think about it because that's just how it is
Deliberately avoiding contemplation about the lifelong medication regimen.
I think I'm mentally fucked for a reason
Believing that personal mental struggles serve a purpose.
God forgot what the devil looks like
Implying a loss of distinction between good and evil forces.
And I was put on earth to tease him
Suggesting a role in provoking or tempting malevolent forces.
To watch him night after night after night after night
Repetitive exposure to the malevolent force (the devil) without interference.
And I was only given talent to show everyone what they should not be
Believing personal talents highlight what others should avoid becoming.
God fucking my brain was for a reason
Considering personal mental turmoil as part of divine intent.
He said "paint a picture of the devil for me"
Imagining a command from a higher power to depict the devil.
Lithium is my best friend now
Reiteration of lithium's critical role, despite personal dislike.
I hate it sometimes, but that's just how it is
Continued acknowledgment of conflicting feelings towards lithium.
Three times a day for the rest of my life now
Reiterating the necessity of thrice-daily lithium intake indefinitely.
I can't think about it because that's just how it is
Avoiding dwelling on the permanence of the medication routine.
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