Ruby Cumulous
Unraveling the Complexities of Love and Regret
Lyrics
Once my lover, now she's dressed up in gold.
Once my lover, now she's adorned in wealth and luxury.
Silk and cedar, sleeping out in the cold.
Wrapped in expensive fabric and surrounded by fragrant wood, but sleeping in discomfort.
Got my badge, got my gun, got my anger.
Possessing authority, a weapon, and resentment.
She didn't wanna sleep alone that night.
She didn't want to be alone that night.
(Who would say no? who would say no?)
Expressing surprise that anyone would refuse companionship.
I didn't answer when she called that night (Oh my god, twenty years old, twenty years old)
Ignoring her call on a night when the narrator was 20 years old.
Now when I close my eyes I see her face.
Visualizing her face when closing the eyes.
Cause the love you give is the love you take and the heart you hold is the one you break.
Emphasizing the reciprocity of love and the pain caused by the one you love.
It's my behavior that I abhor.
Expressing disapproval of one's own actions.
I was her savior and she was my scapegoat.
The narrator played the role of a rescuer while she served as a convenient target for blame.
Ruby cumulous, In an alley alone.
Referring to someone named Ruby Cumulous in a desolate place.
Dial the number, but there's nobody home.
Attempting to contact Ruby, but receiving no response.
Got my foil, got my fire, got my sorrow.
Possessing a makeshift tool, a source of fire, and carrying a burden of sorrow.
She didn't wanna sleep alone that night.
She didn't want to be alone that night (repeated).
(Who would say no? who would say no?)
Reiterating the surprise at the idea of refusing companionship (repeated).
I didn't answer when she called that night
Ignoring her call on a night when the narrator was 20 years old (repeated).
(Oh my god, twenty years old, twenty years old)
Re-emphasizing the narrator's age during the ignored call (repeated).
Now when I close my eyes I see her face.
Continuing to visualize her face when closing the eyes (repeated).
'Cause the love you give is the love
Reiterating the reciprocity of love and its consequences.
you take and the heart you hold is the one you break.
Re-emphasizing the idea that the heart you hold is the one you break.
It's my behavior that I abhor.
Expressing disapproval of one's own actions (repeated).
I was her savior and she was my scapegoat.
Recalling the narrator's role as a savior and her as a scapegoat (repeated).
Like paper angels, strung in a row.
Comparing individuals to paper angels, arranged in a row.
Drunk with inertia, they never grow old.
Being intoxicated with inertia, implying a lack of growth or progress.
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