Lyrics
Didn't think that it would hit this hard
Expressing surprise at the intensity of emotions.
'Cause after all, wasn't I the one who asked for it?
Questioning if the emotional impact was expected, given previous desires.
Did I go too far?
Reflecting on whether actions went beyond acceptable limits.
Is it all in my head?
Uncertainty about the reality of the situation.
Or should I have instead put the effort in to make up?
Contemplating if more effort should have been invested in reconciliation.
Cause the fake love isn't seeming as fake now that it's gone
Realizing that the love, initially perceived as fake, feels genuine after its absence.
I say stuff tryna act tough
Admitting to a facade of toughness in words.
But when I said it'd hurt
Surprise at the unintended hurt caused by words.
Didn't think it'd be for both of us
Unexpectedly experiencing emotional pain for both parties.
Maybe I'm the one who did too much
Acknowledging the possibility of personal overcommitment.
Didn't think that it would hit this hard
Reiterating the unexpected intensity of emotional impact.
'Cause after all, I'm the one who started wanting out
Acceptance of initiating the desire to end the relationship.
But I'm still so far
Feeling emotionally distant despite the initial decision.
Thought I left cause I'd end up being happier
Leaving for the expectation of happiness but realizing a sense of loss.
But now I miss your calls
Longing for the communication that was assumed to be unmissable.
The ones I thought I wouldn't miss at all
Regret for underestimating the value of missed calls.
Wish that I never said it went too far
Wishing the decision to end the relationship hadn't been declared.
'Cause now I see that it was all on me for never bringing it up
Taking responsibility for not addressing relationship concerns earlier.
Wish it was both of us
Desiring shared responsibility for the relationship's outcome.
'Cause now I think I did too much
Considering the possibility of personal excessiveness in actions.
Yeah, when I said that it would hurt
Expressing surprise at the mutual pain caused by words.
No, I really didn't think that it'd be both of us
Acknowledging the lack of anticipation regarding shared emotional impact.
'Cause now I think I did too much
Reflecting on personal responsibility for the emotional consequences.
Yeah
Reiteration of self-reflection and contemplation.
Maybe I'm the one who did you wrong
Considering personal accountability for wrongdoing.
Maybe I shouldn't have lead you on
Reflecting on potential misguidance in the relationship.
Maybe I would've been better off
Contemplating the possibility of a better outcome with more effort.
Tryna figure it out instead of just giving it up
Considering the value of persistence over giving up.
Maybe you deserved a better love
Acknowledging the possibility of not providing the best love.
One who'd tell you when it felt so wrong
Desiring open communication for a healthier relationship.
Make it easier to open up
Advocating for effort in understanding rather than giving up.
Tryna figure it out instead of just giving it up
Reiterating the importance of figuring out the relationship challenges.
Both of us
Emphasizing joint responsibility for the relationship's state.
'Cause now I think I did too much
Repeating the consideration of personal excessiveness in actions.
Both of us
Reiterating joint responsibility for the emotional consequences.
Oh, maybe I'm the one who did too much
Acknowledging the possibility of personal overcommitment in the relationship.
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