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Feels like it should sting, but it only aches
Despite expecting pain, it's more of a lingering discomfort
Respite from two till ten while I contemplate
Temporary relief between specific hours while reflecting deeply
A world without you here; don't know what I'd say
Unable to articulate in a world without your presence
If one day you were gone
Imagining life without you
Irrational, I know, but it's your fault we're still friends
Blaming you irrationally for the continued friendship
I'll need you one more time and the cycle begins again
Needing you cyclically, initiating the pattern once more
So tell me how you feel, it's not a burden, it's my remedy
Asking for your emotional state to heal
So used to us I can't bear to just be me
Uncomfortable being just oneself without our connection
So leave me on read again, and I'll hear from you once a week
Being left on 'read,' sporadic communication
Got everything I know from group chats and your old tweets
Gathering information from indirect sources
And if you died I'd never know, cause I'm your last port of call
Feeling responsible as the last person to be contacted
Well I'd rather know too much than know nothing at all
Prefer knowing too much over complete ignorance
You're everything I wanted and more
You embody all I desire and more
I can't go it alone
Unable to handle things independently
She's so pristine, and I'm just one more
Comparing oneself unfavorably to someone pristine
Yeah I'm just one more
Feeling like just another insignificant person
One more guest at your funeral
Imagining being another attendee at your funeral
What would I say if tomorrow was the day?
Contemplating what to express if tomorrow brings your absence
When I'm confronted and can't wish it all to go away
Unable to evade facing the situation
(What would I say?)
Reiterating the uncertainty of words in that moment
(At your, at your, at your, at your funeral)
Reflecting on potential words at your funeral
What would I say?
Pondering what to articulate in that scenario
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