Guinea Pig
Love's Experiment: Navigating Heartbreak as the Guinea Pig
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I was your guinea pig
I served as an experimental subject for you
You were my only love
You were my primary and only love
You had to test it out
You had to test our relationship
Drive it around
You had to experience it firsthand
I was your dress rehearsal
I was your initial attempt or practice
You were my final bow
You were my final and last act in love
Oh what a different view
Observing the situation from a different perspective
To watch from the crowd
To witness it from the sidelines
I guess you worked out the kinks on me
You worked out the problems or issues with our relationship on me
And now that it's over
Now that the relationship is over
I can say I'm happy for you
I can genuinely express happiness for you
You smile and say this drinks on me
You offer to buy a drink, symbolizing closure
I reach out to hold her
I reach out to comfort or connect with you
Just to give it closure
To bring a sense of conclusion to our relationship
I'm glad your better
I'm pleased that you are in a better state now
But where does that leave me
However, what about me and my emotional state?
I was your guinea pig
I was your experimental subject again
You were my trial drug
You treated me like a trial drug
Give me a dose of you
You experimented with my emotions
See if I die
To see if I can endure it or if it breaks me
Or maybe I'll make it through
Until the next time you attempt
Till the next time you tried
Using the love I provide
Using the love I give
Draining me emotionally
Bleeding me dry
Leaving me emotionally exhausted
So what about your family
Questioning about your family
Is your mom still in Georgia
Asking about your mother's location in Georgia
Looking younger getting older
Noting the paradox of looking younger but getting older
And what about this guy you're seeing
Asking about the person you are currently dating
Heard he's a high powered lawyer
Heard he's a successful lawyer
Guess that does it for you
Accepting that he might be a good match for you
I'm glad you found him
Expressing happiness for your new relationship
But where does that leave me
However, what about me and my feelings?
Alone on the floor thinking through all the times that we never had
Reflecting on the times we never had together, feeling alone
Alone on the phone flipping through too afraid to begin again
Being alone and hesitant to start anew, particularly over the phone
Saturday nights don't feel the same
Saturday nights are no longer enjoyable
And maybe I'm the one to blame
Perhaps acknowledging personal responsibility for the relationship's failure
Cuz I saw the signs
Recognizing the warning signs
And I told a lie
Telling a lie when things were not fine
When i said it's fine
Pretending that everything was okay
But you were my everything
Acknowledging the significance of the past relationship
And I was just your guinea pig
You were my everything, but I was just an experimental subject for you
Said you were my everything
You claimed to be everything to me, but I was just a test for you
And I was just your guinea pig
Reiterating that you were my everything, but I was merely a guinea pig for you
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