the thought of you
Embracing Fear: Scruffpuppie's Haunting Reflections on Love and Anxiety
Lyrics
All the time I question everything
Expressing constant questioning and doubt in various aspects of life.
And I feel like it's wrong
Feeling a sense of wrongdoing or guilt.
Just to pool my thoughts together wishing the list wasn't so long
Struggling to organize thoughts, desiring a shorter list of concerns.
And you tell me that I'm selfish
Being accused of selfishness by someone.
And I know that it's the truth
Acknowledging the truth in the accusation.
For who would sit inside her bedroom wishing that I could be with you
Expressing a longing to be with someone from the confines of a bedroom.
And I tell myself I'm worthy but I know that I am not
Struggling with self-worth and acknowledging personal flaws.
I will isolate myself
Choosing isolation as a coping mechanism.
And my skin will start to rot
Symbolic decay of the self, possibly reflecting emotional deterioration.
And my heart will bust to pieces
Anticipating emotional breakdown, using metaphorical language.
They're too small to just pick up
Acknowledging the difficulty of recovering from emotional damage.
See our lives will flash before my eyes
Reflecting on life's fleeting moments, suggesting a sense of mortality.
And my blood will fill the cup
Imagining a dramatic end with blood filling a cup, possibly a metaphor for life.
Cause it's so scary
Expressing fear, possibly related to the intensity of emotions.
Just the thought of you
Highlighting the fear associated with the mere thought of a particular person.
And I am married
Stating a commitment or attachment to the mentioned person.
To the thought of you
Reiterating the emotional connection and commitment to thoughts of the person.
See it's 6am and I am half awake and I am lost
Describing a disoriented and lost state at 6 am.
I've been up all night and my heart feels like it's about to pop
Conveying exhaustion and heightened heart rate after being awake all night.
All the drugs I take will overwhelm me 'til I am but dust
Using drug imagery to depict feeling overwhelmed and reduced to dust.
Blowing through the wind wishing that I could find another rush
Expressing a desire for new experiences and sensations.
But the wind will die and I will wish for peace inside my mind
Wishing for inner peace when external conditions settle.
Need to get away from hoping all the days will turn to nights
Seeking an escape from constant hope and the passage of time.
And my thoughts will stray and I will be okay to just get high
Acceptance of using substances to cope and find solace.
Excuses I will tell myself until my final night
Acknowledging reliance on excuses to cope until the end.
Cause it's so scary
Reiterating the fear associated with thoughts of the mentioned person.
Just the thought of you
Expressing the intensity and fear linked to thoughts of the person.
And I am married
Reaffirming a commitment or attachment to the mentioned person.
To the thought of you
Emphasizing the ongoing emotional connection and commitment to thoughts of the person.
Cause it's so scary
Reiterating the fear associated with thoughts of the mentioned person.
Just the thought of you
Expressing the intensity and fear linked to thoughts of the person.
And I am married
Reaffirming a commitment or attachment to the mentioned person.
To the thought of you
Emphasizing the ongoing emotional connection and commitment to thoughts of the person.
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