Close My Eyes
Eternal Struggle: Unveiling the Turmoil Within Closed Eyes
Lyrics
Here's a rope, some pills
Offering options for self-harm: rope, pills, and broken glass.
and broken glass
Describing the tools of potential self-destruction.
Another troubled space
Referring to a troubled mental or emotional state.
Can this blend of fibers
Questioning if a combination of different elements can bring stability.
put me in my place?
Asking if these elements can help find one's rightful place.
'Cause I know it's not the first time
Acknowledging repeated struggles and challenges.
Certainly won't be the last
Anticipating ongoing difficulties in the future.
Unless my demons let me swim on
Expressing a desire to overcome inner demons and move forward.
from my past
Highlighting the importance of overcoming past issues.
'Cause baby when I close my eyes
Describing a recurring experience of vulnerability when closing eyes.
I always seem to fall to pieces
Noting a tendency to feel emotionally shattered during these moments.
I know it comes as no surprise
Acknowledging that this emotional state is expected.
Why you say I'm "not the one"
Reacting to being perceived as "not the one" in a relationship.
I've always been the jaundiced type
Admitting a pattern of being cynical or pessimistic.
Who ruins everything in heaven
Describing a tendency to disrupt positive situations.
I'm always reaching for a sign
Expressing a constant search for a positive sign or signal.
That I know will never come
Realizing the futility of expecting certain positive outcomes.
Aimed to please
Expressing a desire to please others, but facing self-destructive consequences.
I always shoot myself
Acknowledging a self-sabotaging tendency despite good intentions.
A glutton for the worst
Describing a tendency to indulge in negative experiences.
Drunk off the bad
Being intoxicated by negative influences.
Loving everything that's cursed
Expressing a love for things that are considered cursed or harmful.
'Cause I know it's not the first time
Recognizing repeated struggles as part of one's history.
Certainly won't be the last
Expecting ongoing challenges in the future.
Unless I somehow let me swim on
Desiring to move forward and leave past struggles behind.
from the past
Emphasizing the importance of personal agency in overcoming the past.
'Cause baby when I close my eyes
Reiterating the vulnerability experienced when closing eyes.
I always seem to fall to pieces
Highlighting the tendency to feel emotionally broken during these moments.
I know it comes as no surprise
Acknowledging the predictable nature of this emotional state.
Why you say I'm "not the one"
Reacting to being labeled as "not the one" in a relationship.
I've always been the jaundiced type
Admitting a predisposition towards a cynical or pessimistic outlook.
Who ruins everything in heaven
Describing a pattern of disrupting positive situations.
I'm always reaching for a sign
Expressing a perpetual search for positive signs, despite the expected disappointment.
That I know will never come
Recognizing the ongoing pursuit of positive signs that may never materialize.
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