Lyrics
Ain't want to say I love you cause I know it hurt
Avoided expressing love to prevent causing pain
Ain't want to say I love you cause I know it won't work
Avoided saying "I love you" acknowledging it won't be successful
I can't feel my body when I'm off these percs
Numbness due to the influence of prescription drugs (percs)
I pour out my guts and then I go berserk
Emotional expression leading to uncontrollable behavior
I went out my way now baby tell me do you miss me
Reflecting on efforts, questioning if missed or appreciated
Going up this hill I'm pushing pedal on the ten speed
Struggling uphill, exerting effort on a ten-speed bicycle
Nobody I know been here before I gotta succeed
Facing challenges no one around has encountered, aiming for success
Trying to put my faith in God he asking do you trust me
Contemplating trust in God, questioning if faith is present
Yeah but do you love me
Seeking confirmation of love alongside trust
Dealing with this heartbreak shake it off like it ain't nothing
Coping with heartbreak, dismissing it as insignificant
I'm tryna fill my soul but I keep coming up empty
Struggling to find fulfillment, facing repeated emptiness
I want to feel whole but how can I since you left me
Desiring completeness but hindered by a past departure
Shit this life we live can really end quick
Acknowledging the fragility of life, living with paranoia
I'm paranoid I'm riding round with choppers and them sticks
Being cautious, armed, and prepared for potential threats
I can't quit
Persistent and determined, unable to give up
No calling my phone we jumping the ball on the blitz
Avoiding communication, anticipating unexpected challenges
It ain't no pressure my niggas gone stretch ya
No pressure, confident in the ability to confront challenges
You ain't at the doctor when I get you stitched
Addressing consequences, not present during recovery
I mean this ain't take no effort
Asserting that success required minimal effort
Lead the flock like I'm a shepherd
Leading confidently, guiding like a shepherd
Militant cause I'm a stepper
Displaying a militant attitude as a determined individual
Call me spaz I got a temper aye
Referred to as "spaz" with a temper
Guilty by association cause I'm always with them members
Associated with guilt due to constant companionship with a certain group
Ain't want to say I love you cause I know it hurt
Avoided expressing love again due to anticipated pain
Ain't want to say I love you cause I know it won't work
Reiteration of avoiding expressing love for anticipated failure
I can't feel my body when I'm off these percs
Reiterating numbness from the influence of prescription drugs
I pour out my guts and then I go berserk
Repeating the pattern of emotional expression leading to uncontrollable behavior
I went out my way now baby tell me do you miss me
Reflection on efforts and seeking acknowledgment of absence
Going up this hill I'm pushing pedal on the ten speed
Continuing the uphill struggle, emphasizing effort on a ten-speed bicycle
Nobody I know been here before I gotta succeed
Emphasizing the uniqueness of the challenges faced for success
Trying to put my faith in God he asking do you trust me
Continuing to question faith in God and the concept of trust
But do you love me
Reiterating the inseparable connection between love and trust
Do you love me
Posing a direct question about love
Do you love me
Repetition of the question, seeking a clear answer
Do you love me
Reiteration of the inquiry into the existence of love
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