Not So Sure
Navigating Insecurity: A Reflection on Self-Discovery
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During break, I heard them laughing
Observing others laughing during a break
As they gathered up and talked
People gathered and conversing
So I went into the bathroom and
Reacting to the situation by entering the bathroom
I cried behind the stall
Expressing emotions privately behind a stall
No one noticed I was missing
Being unnoticed by others
So I took a breath or two
Taking moments to compose oneself
I washed my face to leave no trace
Washing face to conceal emotional distress
No mascara residue
Ensuring no visible signs, like mascara residue
Know the truth
Reflecting on the importance of truth
Still that kid in middle school
Identifying with one's middle school self
Acting wiser than the wise
Acting mature to prove intelligence
Just to prove I'm not a fool
Avoiding being perceived as foolish
I wanna have my act together
Desiring to appear put together
Well, at least in front of you
Seeking composure, especially in front of others
Well, I used to think that confidence is key
Previously believing confidence is essential
But that's the thing i'm not so sure anymore
Doubting the significance of confidence now
I'm not so sure
Expressing uncertainty
Well I long for real connection
Craving genuine connections
But try to find it on my own
Attempting to find connections independently
And I ache for something honest
Yearning for honesty while wearing a facade
While I'm putting on a show
Presenting a false image to the world
Masking all my fears and failures
Concealing fears and failures with pride
With a painful kind of pride
Using a facade to cope with insecurities
They say "fake it 'till you make it
Adopting a "fake it 'til you make it" mentality
'Till your life is one big lie"
Living a life built on falsehoods
If you wanna know the truth
Reiterating the persistent middle school self
I'm still that kid in middle school
Fearing mistakes and portraying a cool exterior
'Cause I'm scared of screwin' up
Expressing fear of messing up
So I'm a fool who plays it cool
Choosing to act cool despite insecurities
I wanna have my act together
Desiring to appear put together, especially for others
Well, at least in front of you
Seeking composure, particularly in others' presence
Well, I used to think that confidence is key
Rethinking the importance of confidence
But that's the thing i'm not so sure anymore
Expressing ongoing uncertainty
I'm not so sure
Reiterating the theme of uncertainty
And if sorrow is the tie
Considering sorrow as a shared experience
That binds your lonely heart to mine
Proposing openness and taking time for connection
Let's be real and take our time
Advocating for authenticity in relationships
Let's sit down and talk a while
Suggesting a genuine conversation
Dear friends, I've heard it told
Addressing the audience as "dear friends"
You'd be a little less alone
Offering comfort in shared vulnerability
If today we could be brave enough
Encouraging bravery to combat loneliness
To let ourselves be known
Promoting genuine self-revelation
I used to think that confidence is key
Reflecting on the reevaluation of confidence
But that's the thing i'm not so sure anymore
Reiterating uncertainty about confidence
I'm not so sure i'm not so sure anymore
Emphasizing ongoing uncertainty
I'm not so sure
Reiterating the theme of uncertainty
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