If I Didn't Know
Reflections on Friendship: Unveiling the Layers of 'If I Didn't Know'
Lyrics
If I didn’t know
Expressing a hypothetical situation of not having enough understanding or insight.
Better, I’d ask you what was wrong
Implies a willingness to inquire about someone's distress if the understanding were inadequate.
And you’d tell me
An expectation of a response or disclosure if asked about the problem.
Won’t you fuck off friend
Harshly rejecting someone, possibly a friend, requesting distance.
And if I didn’t know
If lacking understanding, the speaker would convey their emotions.
Better id tell you how it feels
The speaker would explain the experience of observing the listener's foolish actions.
To watch you make a fool
Referencing the listener's behavior as embarrassing or foolish in recent years.
Of yourself these past few years
Describing the accumulation of deceptive behaviors and the resulting breakdown.
A fun pairing of lies
Describes deceitful actions, possibly for entertainment.
Gathered yourself until you cried
Continuation of lies leading to emotional distress, reaching a point of tears.
The wolf is howling in your eyes
Metaphorically referring to inner turmoil or distress reflected in the listener's eyes.
But you couldn’t bare me sympathize
The listener couldn't accept the speaker's sympathy or understanding.
And you noticed
The listener perceived the speaker's genuine attempt at friendship.
That I was just trying to be your friend
Speaker's acknowledgment of trying to support the listener.
So you told me I suck
The listener responded negatively, criticizing the speaker.
And my jobs not enough
The listener belittles the speaker's profession and efforts.
And now I am thinking about giving up
Feeling disheartened and contemplating giving up due to the listener's criticism.
Maybe you’re just not that good of an influence
Doubting the positive influence the listener has had on the speaker's life.
Don’t get the idea
Rejecting the notion that the speaker frequently thinks about the listener.
That I’ve been thinking about you often
Asserting the absence of the listener in the speaker's thoughts.
You’re not even in my direct consciousness
Emphasizing the listener's lack of significance in the speaker's mind.
But today, but today
Expressing a sudden shift in the speaker's thoughts.
I’ve been thinking about
The speaker reflects on past negative attitudes towards the listener.
How much of a dick I was about you
The speaker's regret for previously being unkind towards the listener.
Not being a Christian-church-going girl
Referencing a divergence in religious beliefs, but implying it's inconsequential.
But that doesn’t matter anyway
Stating the insignificance of religious differences in the context of their relationship.
‘Cause we’re not even friends
Acknowledging the absence of friendship between the speaker and listener.
How could we be after the things that we’ve said
Highlighting irreparable damage to the relationship due to hurtful words.
We never made amends
Recognition that reconciliation hasn't occurred between the two.
Maybe it’s better off that way
Consideration that it might be better for their relationship to remain estranged.
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