I Still Keep Them Around
Embracing Change: Battling Demons and Finding Relief in Sparks' Melody
Lyrics
I've been thinking about my problems
I've been reflecting on my challenges
And how they weigh me down
Contemplating the burden they impose on me
And how I say that I don't really want 'em
Despite claiming I don't want them,
But I still keep them around
I still hold on to them
I think we all deserve much better
I believe we all deserve a better situation
Than the mess that I've become
Than the chaotic state I find myself in
And I'm afraid to keep selling a false hope
Fearful of perpetuating false hope
That someday I'll be enough
That someday I'll be sufficient
I stood up from my emotional needs
I prioritized my emotional needs
Just to find I'm stuck in taller weeds
Only to discover I'm entangled in more challenges
I guess my vices always had me beat
My weaknesses always had the upper hand
Well I want some relief
Desiring some form of relief
Don't wanna be stuck in a daydream
Rejecting the idea of being lost in fantasies
With my head up in the clouds
With my thoughts disconnected from reality
Thinking I can keep doing the same things
Believing I can repeat the same actions
And the results will change somehow
Expecting different outcomes
There must be some kind of satisfaction
Searching for satisfaction even when deeply involved
When I'm in too deep
Drawn away by allure to unattainable treasures
Lured away by some attraction
We all tend to make excuses
To treasures I could never keep
When we fail to fulfill our responsibilities
Seems like all of us will make excuse
Excuses arise when faced with failure
When we have failed to do the things we should
Unable to accept the truth
Lies will always rush to comfort you
Falsehoods rush in to provide comfort
When you can't accept the truth
When the truth becomes hard to acknowledge
I stood up from my emotional needs
Again, addressing my emotional needs
Just to find I'm stuck in taller weeds
Yet finding myself in deeper troubles
I guess my vices always had me beat
Admitting that my vices consistently defeat me
Well I want some relief
Seeking some form of respite
I keep telling myself that people change
Reassuring myself that change is possible
I can change, I can overcome
Expressing the belief in personal growth
Don't make any guarantees
Avoiding making definite promises
But I won't, no I won't give up
But determined not to give up
Just keep telling yourself that people change
Encouraging the idea that change is attainable
You can change, you can overcome
Affirming the possibility of overcoming challenges
Don't make any guarantees
Withholding promises but urging perseverance
But you don't, no you don't give up
Emphasizing the importance of not giving up
No, don't give up
Reiterating the message not to give up
Don't give up
Stressing the persistence against challenges
I keep thinking about my problems
Reflecting again on personal challenges
And how they weigh me down
Acknowledging the weight of these challenges
And how I say that I don't really want 'em
Repeating the desire to be free from them
But I still keep them around
Despite the desire, still holding on to the challenges
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