Elevens
Finding Redemption: Unraveling the Depths of With Honor's 'Elevens'
Lyrics
Please tell me how we did this,
Please express to me how we ended up in this situation,
We got ourselves into such a mess again.
We've once again found ourselves in a troublesome state.
We've fought so long we can't remember what the hell it was all about.
We've been in conflict for so long that we've forgotten the original purpose or reason behind it all.
I can't count the times I've turned around, cheated my promises, and sold you out.
I've betrayed my commitments multiple times and let you down.
How is this not a waste of time, these blind eyes won't see me through.
Why is this not considered a waste of time? My perspective is limited, and I'm unable to perceive the truth.
I'm feeling for a hand to hold me now, lift the veil, see the truth.
I'm seeking support, longing for someone to guide me and reveal the reality.
There's so much further left to climb, and not one inch has been secure.
There's still a long journey ahead, and yet none of the progress feels secure or certain.
I'm feeling for a hand to hold me now, lift the veil and endure.
I'm yearning for assistance to endure through difficulties and face the truth.
Be it my dexterity for long-winded alibis,
Although I have a skill for creating elaborate excuses,
But excuses came full circle months ago.
These excuses have become repetitive and ineffective.
I've wanted to walk away, but it can't be right,
I've considered leaving, but it doesn't seem morally right
To forget the knocking and throw the fight,
To ignore the signs of trouble and give up the struggle,
Silence the wanting and blackout the firelight.
To suppress desires and extinguish passion.
I'm digging deep to find resolve to change, will to draw lines.
I'm making a concerted effort to find determination to change and set boundaries.
I'm putting old ways to the knife, I'm dying here this time.
I'm rejecting my old habits; this time, it feels like I'm facing my demise.
Because honestly I can't relate,
Because honestly, I can't connect,
While lying to your face every day.
While deceiving you consistently every day.
With webs of lies spun to justify all of my failures.
With intricate lies created to justify my failures.
I've realized my heart's content,
I've come to understand what satisfies me,
I may never see an end.
It's possible I might never find a resolution.
So when you need me I'll be outside throwing rocks at the moon every night
So, whenever you require me, I'll be outside, futilely attempting impossible tasks.
'til the day I die.
Continuing this pursuit until the end of my days.
I still believe that faith can move the mountains.
I still hold onto the belief that unwavering faith can overcome great obstacles.
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