I Wanna Win
Seeking Redemption in Regret: Lola Balter's 'I Wanna Win' Reflections
Lyrics
I hate how easy I am
I am bothered by how effortlessly I can be influenced or manipulated.
Did I ruin my chances?
Am I responsible for ruining my opportunities?
Would I do it again?
Would I make the same mistakes again?
And I'd call you selfish, but I know it's just to make me feel better about myself
I might label you as selfish, but deep down, it's to comfort myself.
I'd do it all again
I am willing to repeat my actions despite the consequences.
Do I deserve to be important to someone else?
Do I deserve to be valued and important in someone else's life?
I'll keep making bad decisions
I continue to make poor choices and attribute them to someone else's deceit.
To blame it on a fraud
I will play various roles, but I won't become what you desire.
I'll be everything, but I'll never be what you want
I aspire to succeed.
I wanna win
Expressing a strong desire to triumph or achieve a goal.
I don't know if I'll be able to trust again
Uncertainty about the ability to trust again in relationships.
I had my good traits and my bad
Recognizing both positive and negative aspects of oneself.
I know I'm not enough
Feeling inadequate and aware of not being sufficient.
And that makes me so sad
The realization of inadequacy brings deep sadness.
I wanna win
Reiteration of the desire to achieve success.
How much do I have to change
Questioning the extent of change needed for self-improvement.
To finally figure out
Seeking understanding and self-discovery.
"I felt this way at your age"
Questioning a statement about past emotions.
What are you talking about?
Expressing confusion about the mentioned age-related emotion.
I hate how critical you are
Disliking the overly critical nature of someone.
How high you've set the bar
Questioning how someone sets high standards effortlessly.
How do you do it so easily?
Wondering how someone can achieve difficult tasks easily.
I wish you knew how much I wished that was me
Expressing a wish for someone to understand the desire to be in their position.
I wanna win
Reiteration of the strong desire to succeed.
I don't know if I'll be able to trust again
Similar uncertainty about the ability to trust, possibly indicating emotional turmoil.
I wish you could hear this
Expressing a desire for someone to hear and understand personal feelings.
I wish you knew how it felt
Wishing for someone to comprehend the emotional experience.
I hate you so much for not knowing how to help
Feeling resentment for someone's inability to provide assistance.
I wanna win
Reiteration of the strong desire to triumph or achieve a goal.
I think the need to cry has finally left
Suggesting a decrease in the emotional need to cry, potentially indicating healing.
I never meant to hurt you
Expressing regret for unintentionally causing harm.
I hope you can rest
Wishing peace and rest for the affected person.
I miss you
Expressing a strong sense of longing for someone.
More than you'll know in a lifetime or two
Emphasizing the depth of the longing for someone.
I finally finished what I started
Completing a significant personal endeavor related to the mentioned person.
With you
Ending a connection or relationship with the mentioned person.
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