Monster
Navigating Shadows: Unraveling the Depths of Self in Julia Cole's 'Monster'
Lyrics
You put me on a pedestal and tell me I'm the best
You elevate me and proclaim that I'm exceptional
Raise me up into the sky until I'm short of breath (yeah)
Lift me to great heights until I struggle to breathe
Fill me up with confidence, I say what's in my chest
Boost my confidence, allowing me to express my feelings
Spill my words and tear me down until there's nothing left
Reveal my vulnerabilities and criticize until there's nothing left
Rearrange the pieces just to fit me with the rest, yeah
Reorganize aspects of my identity to conform with others
But what if I, what if I trip?
Contemplate the possibility of making a mistake
What if I, what if I fall?
Consider the consequences of stumbling or failing
Then am I the monster?
Question whether I become the "monster" in such scenarios
Just let me know
Seek clarification and understanding
And what if I, what if I sin?
Imagine the outcomes if I engage in wrongdoing
And what if I, what if I break? Yeah
Reflect on the possibility of making mistakes or facing challenges
Then am I the monster? Yeah
Question whether I become a "monster" in those situations
Just let me know, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Request information or confirmation
I was 15 when the world put me on a pedestal
Recall being idealized at a young age
I had big dreams of doin' shows and making memories (yeah)
Envisioned ambitious goals of performing and creating memories
Made some bad moves trying to act cool, upset by their jealousy (uh-uh)
Admit to poor choices fueled by others' envy
Lifting me up (lifting me up), lifting me up (yeah)
Acknowledges the cycle of being uplifted and torn down
And tearing me down (down), tearing me down (down, down), yeah
Highlights the contrasting experiences of elevation and criticism
I'll take responsibility (ooh) for everything I've done (yeah)
Accepts responsibility for actions and mistakes
Holding it against me (yeah) like you're the holy one, yeah
Feels judged by others as if they are morally superior
I had a chip on my shoulder, had to let it go
Used to harbor resentment but decided to let it go
'Cause unforgiveness keeps them in control
Recognizes the power of forgiveness in breaking control
I came in with good intentions then I let it go
Entered with positive intentions but eventually released them
And now I really wanna know
Expresses a desire for understanding
What if I, what if I trip? Oh (oh)
Contemplates the potential for stumbling or making mistakes
What if I, what if I fall? (I fall)
Considers the consequences of potential failures
Then am I the monster? (Am I the monster?)
Raises the question of becoming a "monster" in such circumstances
Just let me know (let me know)
Seeks clarity and acknowledgment
And what if I, what if I sin? (oh)
Imagines the repercussions of committing sins
And what if I, what if I break? Yeah (ooh)
Reflects on the potential for breaking and facing challenges
Then am I the monster? (Am I the monster?)
Questions whether this makes them a "monster"
Just let me know
Requests understanding and communication
Oh, please just let me know, yeah
Urges for open communication and transparency
Baby, what if I fall down?
Expresses vulnerability and fear of falling
Please don't let me fall
Pleads not to be abandoned in times of weakness
Oh, please don't let me fall
Reiterates the plea to avoid a downfall
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