The Best Kind of Anxiety
Embracing Hellfires: A Journey Through Inner Turmoil
Lyrics
Always waited so long
Expressing enduring anticipation or patience.
I’ve waited on my own solo beside this phone
Waiting alone, possibly for a connection through the phone.
I swear I see my flaws and just where I went wrong
Reflecting on personal flaws and past mistakes.
Don’t want some distant memory
Rejecting the idea of a distant memory.
Of wondering where you’ve gone
Not wanting to experience the uncertainty of someone's absence.
Call me up and make me feel less alone
Desiring a call for companionship and to alleviate loneliness.
When the lights go out you’re the only home I’ll ever know
Viewing someone as the only source of comfort.
Never go
An urging to never leave.
I’ve got hellfires they’re burning through
Feeling internal turmoil or intense emotions.
My insides are changing to someone new
Undergoing a transformative process within.
Locked in my mind will I ever be free
Questioning if mental confinement will ever end.
You’re the best kind of anxiety
Describing the person as a significant, though anxiety-inducing, presence.
In case I never told you, just know that I
Expressing gratitude for unspoken support.
Just know that I am grateful
Reiterating gratitude for someone's periodic concern.
For checking on me from time to time
Troubled communication but maintaining faith.
I’m tongue tied but trying to keep my faith full
Struggling to express feelings verbally.
What goes over your head crawls under my skin
Sensing and internalizing things others may overlook.
Got ghosts all around me they’ll find their way in
Feeling surrounded by unresolved issues or haunting memories.
Do you think I’m able
Pondering one's capability to handle challenges.
I tried to stay stable
Attempting to maintain stability amid difficulties.
I think I’m not okay
Acknowledging inner struggles and emotional challenges.
I’ve got hellfires they’re burning through
Reiteration of internal turmoil and transformation.
My insides are changing to someone new
Continuation of personal evolution.
Locked in my mind will I ever be free
Persisting doubts about mental freedom.
You’re the best kind of anxiety
Highlighting the paradoxical nature of anxiety being the "best kind."
The best kind of anxiety
Reaffirming the contradictory nature of the anxiety mentioned.
In circles we go round and round
Describing a repetitive, cyclic pattern in life.
Playing to the beat of my drum now there’s no sound
Experiencing a lack of external validation or acknowledgment.
In circles we go round and round
Reiteration of a cyclic, possibly monotonous, existence.
Round and round and round
Emphasizing the repetitive nature of life.
Came so far
Reflecting on progress or distance covered.
We came so far
Reiterating a sense of achievement or progress.
Came so far
Repeating the acknowledgment of progress.
Til we hit the ground
Anticipating a fall or setback after progress.
I’ve got hellfires they’re burning through
Repetition of internal struggles and transformation.
Locked in my mind will I ever be free
Continued uncertainty about mental liberation.
You’re the best kind
Affirming the peculiar and contradictory nature of anxiety.
The best kind of anxiety
Reaffirmation of the contradictory nature of the mentioned anxiety.
The best kind of anxiety
Reiteration of the paradoxical and unique quality of the anxiety experienced.
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