Medicated Me
Navigating Despair: Submissioner's Medicated Me Unraveled
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Where do I take my first steps
Expressing uncertainty about the initial steps in life.
I can't even make up my mind about that
Indecision and confusion about life choices.
Pushed into a corner of making the toughest decisions
Feeling pressured to make difficult decisions, possibly feeling trapped.
Why is this all crashing down on me
Sense of overwhelming challenges and difficulties.
I no longer have the power, the will to keep moving forward
Loss of motivation and willpower to move forward.
My legs won't stop moving
Continued physical movement despite mental struggles.
And my brain won't realize
Lack of awareness or acknowledgment of the challenging situation.
I'm stuck in an undesirable situation
Feeling stuck in an undesirable and difficult circumstance.
I wake up because I have to
Obligated to wake up, not driven by personal desire.
Not because I want to
Highlighting a lack of personal enthusiasm in waking up.
My family asks me how I'm doing every day
Deception towards family about one's well-being.
And every day I lie to them
Consistent lying to family members about personal condition.
I'm a recluse, an inanimate object
Feeling isolated and unresponsive like an inanimate object.
I'm a recluse, selfish to my bones and jaded to my core
Describing oneself as selfish and disillusioned.
My family asks me how I'm doing every day
Reiteration of deceptive interactions with family.
Selfish to my bones and jaded to my core
Emphasizing selfishness and disillusionment within.
Life has fucked with my head
Life's challenges affecting mental well-being.
Medicated me reluctantly seeing life is destroying my self being
Reluctant acceptance of medication due to life's destructive impact.
Medicated me, senseless breathing
Medication leading to a sense of numbness and detachment.
Looking off into the distance
Observing a tainted, less joyful perspective on life.
I only see the flashing light of the valley
Viewing life through a negative lens, symbolized by flashing lights.
My happy place has been tainted
A previously positive place or mindset affected by negativity.
Where the fuck can I run to now
Feeling nowhere to escape or find solace.
Just one more thing that has been taken from me
Loss of another aspect of life, adding to a sense of deprivation.
Another lost memory
Highlighting the loss of memories, possibly due to life's challenges.
I only live because I have to
Existence driven by obligation, not personal desire.
Do you remember how I used to be
Reflecting on a past self and questioning changes over time.
The real me
Expressing a sense of disconnection from one's authentic self.
I haven't lived in quite a while
Not actively living, indicating a lack of meaningful experiences.
Dying is much easier than you described
Contemplating the perceived ease of death compared to life's challenges.
I only live because I have to, not because I want to
Reiteration of living out of obligation rather than personal choice.
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