Lyrics
Five years old with an imagination the size of the red sea
Expresses the vivid imagination of a five-year-old, comparing it to the vastness of the Red Sea.
And every night he's out to get me
Describes the recurring theme of feeling pursued or threatened every night.
I can't escape from his clutches I don't know one day I might just run away with nothing left to give
Conveys a sense of entrapment, contemplating the possibility of running away with nothing left to offer.
Every time I lay my head on my pillow I get fucked up
Highlights the distress experienced every night when trying to sleep, possibly due to nightmares.
Well I know that I can't wake my dad up or he'll send me back to bed with a spanking
Shares the fear of waking the father, who might respond with punishment, reinforcing a challenging home environment.
And I can't tell anyone at school they'll just laugh and treat me cruel
Expresses the reluctance to share these experiences at school due to anticipated ridicule and cruelty from peers.
Actually this guy is chasing me inside my head
Introduces a mysterious figure haunting the narrator's thoughts, contributing to a sense of internal distress.
I don't know if I'm alive or I'm dead
Expresses confusion about the boundary between life and death, reflecting psychological turmoil.
Will this guy fucking leave me I can't seem to escape from these dreams and this madness
Desperation to escape the tormenting dreams and madness caused by the persistent, unknown figure.
I gotta go wake my grandpa up because he's the only one who'll understand
Seeking solace and understanding from the narrator's grandpa, the only person perceived as supportive.
Won't you stop chasing me because in these dreams I cry
Pleads for the chasing figure to stop, acknowledging the emotional impact of these dreams with tears.
But no one hears me
Expresses the loneliness of crying out in dreams without being heard by anyone.
Frustrated at what I am I don't know I talk to the doctors
Frustration with self-identity, seeking help from doctors but finding no resolution.
But they can't help me
Emphasizes the inability of medical professionals to provide assistance, deepening the narrator's sense of hopelessness.
I don't know which way is up or down all I know is he's chasing me
Describes disorientation, not knowing one's orientation in space, while being relentlessly pursued in dreams.
Won't you stop chasing me because in these dreams I cry
Reiterates the plea for the chasing figure to cease, with the emotional impact of tears in dreams.
But no one hears me
Repeats the theme of unheard cries in dreams, emphasizing the emotional isolation.
And I still get chills remembering the way that my head was tucked between the cold wall and my left arm and he's swinging that belt so hard
Recalls a traumatic memory involving physical abuse, specifically being hit with a belt against a cold wall.
I can hear it cutting the air and I look up to him and I say
Describes the response of the narrator to the abuse, expressing defiance and a sense of resilience.
I hope you shoes shine from all the tears that you walk on
Conveys a bold and defiant statement, wishing the abuser's shoes to shine from the tears they walk on.
and I ran all the way home
Reveals the narrator's escape from the abusive situation by running home.
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