Lyrics
Maybe I'm not who I used to be
Reflecting on personal change, suggesting a departure from the past identity.
I'm complacent, OK with a life at ease
Expressing contentment with a relaxed life, possibly indicating a sense of stagnation.
When I left I was a nervous wreck
Recalling a previous state of anxiety during departure, hinting at a transformation.
Now I just survey the ceiling
Current state of detachment, observing surroundings without emotional engagement.
Five months at home alone
Five months spent in isolation, emphasizing a prolonged period of solitude.
With not a lot to show (not a lot to show)
Minimal achievements during the isolation period, expressing a lack of tangible progress.
I can't find hope unless I'm dreaming
Struggling to find hope without resorting to dreams or imagination.
I can see my friends but not their face
Difficulty in perceiving the true emotions of friends, possibly due to emotional distance.
Bailing on plans again
Consistently avoiding commitments or social plans, suggesting withdrawal or introversion.
Stay out my six foot space
Protecting personal space, both physically and emotionally.
I just can't accept that there's nothing left
Struggling with the idea of emptiness or lack of purpose.
And nobody's close to keep me in check
Desiring external influences or connections to provide guidance or control.
I miss the sight of healthy public life
Expressing a longing for the vitality of public life before isolation.
Fucking sick of everyone ignoring all the signs
Frustration with societal ignorance or negligence regarding evident problems.
Do you ever think that there's a reason that you wouldn't try?
Questioning the reasons for not attempting to address personal or societal issues.
It blurs my mind and now I cannot sleep for shit at night
Feeling mentally overwhelmed, affecting sleep quality.
Five months at home alone
Reiteration of the extended period of isolation and its perceived lack of productivity.
With not a lot to show (not a lot to show)
Repeating the sentiment of minimal accomplishments during isolation.
I can't find hope unless I'm dreaming
Struggling to find hope without relying on imagination or dreams.
I can see my friends but not their face
Difficulty in connecting with friends on a deeper, emotional level.
Bailing on plans again
Consistent avoidance of social plans, emphasizing a preference for solitude.
Stay out my six foot space
Reiterating the importance of personal space and boundaries.
I just can't accept that there's nothing left
Struggling to accept the perceived emptiness or lack of meaning in life.
And nobody's close to keep me in check
Desiring external influences or connections to provide guidance or control (repeated).
To keep me in check
Emphasizing the need for external influences to maintain personal discipline.
Do you ever think that there's a reason that you wouldn't try?
Reiteration of the questioning about reasons for not attempting to address personal or societal issues.
Blurs my mind and now I cannot sleep for shit at night
Reiterating the mental distress and its impact on sleep quality.
Blurs my mind and now I cannot sleep for shit at night
Repeating the mental distress and its persistent effect on sleep quality.
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