Second Chance
Embracing Second Chances: Fear, Commitment, and Vulnerability
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Happy birthday
Expressing a celebratory sentiment on someone's birthday.
How was your trip to the beach
Inquiring about the experience of a trip to the beach.
I didn't call you
Admitting not making a phone call, possibly avoiding communication.
I like being out of your reach
Preferring to be distant or unavailable.
I threw a party
Organizing a celebration and intentionally not inviting the person.
Did not invite you to it
Acknowledging the exclusion from the party.
My friends all teased me
Friends teasing about a fear of commitment.
For my fear of commitment
Expressing discomfort with commitment.
I hope I never see you after tonight
Desiring to avoid encountering the person after the night's events.
I don't believe in permanence
Rejecting the concept of permanence or long-lasting relationships.
I get scared when you treat me right
Feeling uneasy when treated well, possibly due to past experiences.
So don't give me a second chance
Rejecting the idea of a second chance in a relationship.
And don't believe a thing I say
Advising not to believe the speaker's statements.
You have a strange effect on me
Acknowledging a peculiar impact the person has on the speaker.
You make me scramble all my words
Experiencing difficulty expressing thoughts coherently around the person.
I don't say what I mean
Acknowledging a struggle to communicate intentions clearly.
I had a little talk
Having a conversation with a friend about the relationship.
The other day
Receiving advice not to drive the person away.
My friend told me
Learning from a friend's suggestion.
Not to chase you away
Being cautious not to push the person away.
Advice is easy to hear
Acknowledging the challenge of accepting advice.
But hard to take
Admitting a tendency to make mistakes when personal happiness is at risk.
I'm good at fucking up
Expressing a past history of making errors.
When my joy's at stake
Linking mistakes to personal happiness being jeopardized.
I hope I never see you after tonight
Expressing a desire to avoid seeing the person after the night.
I don't believe in permanence
Rejecting the idea of permanence once again.
I get scared when you treat me right
Feeling uneasy when treated well, repeating the sentiment.
So don't give me a second chance
Reiterating the rejection of a second chance.
And don't believe a word I say
Advising not to trust the speaker's words.
You have a strange effect on me
Acknowledging the person's unique impact on the speaker.
You make me scramble all my words
Expressing difficulty in articulating thoughts in the person's presence.
I don't say what I mean
Repeating the challenge of expressing intentions clearly.
You disappear when I close my eyes
Noticing the person's absence when closing eyes, expressing surprise.
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Expressing confusion about the person's disappearance.
So I never reach for your hand when I'm scared
Avoiding reaching for support when scared due to fear of unavailability.
Cause I'm worried I won't find you there
Fearing the absence of the person in times of need.
I said I'd never see you after tonight
Reiterating the desire not to encounter the person after the night.
I don't believe in permanence
Rejecting the concept of permanence once again, but reflecting on it.
But I've had some time to think
Having time for contemplation and reconsidering the possibility of a second chance.
And I want a second chance
Expressing a newfound desire for a second chance in the relationship.
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