Lyrics
It's 11am and the taste of stale cigarettes linger on my breath
Remnants of stale cigarettes' taste linger in the morning at 11 am.
The scars of another memory lost to the night
The emotional wounds from another forgotten memory haunt me.
I turn to grab a hold of you
Attempting to grasp onto you.
I feel your skin slipping through
Feeling your presence slipping away.
And there's nothing I can do
Helplessness in being unable to prevent the separation.
Why could I never see who you wanted me to be
Regret over not understanding your desired version of me.
Why can't I move on?
Struggling to move forward from the past.
That intoxicating feeling of being high all the while feeling so low
Experiencing conflicting emotions of euphoria and deep sadness simultaneously.
If you could hear me scream would you let me know
Desiring acknowledgment even amidst intense emotions.
I'm drowning in a flood of doubt
Overwhelmed by uncertainty and lack of belief.
Too breathless to scream or shout
Feeling suffocated, unable to express oneself.
Oh no oh no
Expressing distress or worry.
Why could I never see who you wanted me to be
Continued regret over not meeting expectations.
Why can't I move on?
Difficulty in moving past the unresolved past.
My thoughts are cold
Emotions and thoughts are distant and cold.
Couldn't turn this house into a home
Unable to transform a place into a comforting space.
It's time to let go
Realizing the need to release the past.
The nights are so cold in here
Loneliness and isolation felt intensely during nights.
My body frozen from the inside
Feeling physically and emotionally frozen within.
With stolen skin over hollow shells
A sense of being superficially covered, lacking substance.
This can't be real
Questioning the reality of the situation.
I just need to know
Seeking understanding or clarity.
Why could I never see who you wanted me to be
Continued reflection on unmet expectations from the past.
Why can't I move on?
Struggling with the inability to move forward.
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