Lyrics
Days you always want to tell me lies
Days when you consistently choose to deceive me
You try to sell me to the stars at night
Attempting to convince me to reach for unreachable goals, especially at night
You think I'm too uptight
Perceiving me as overly strict or anxious
Love you call me on the phone alone
Expressing love over the phone while I am alone
You wish that I could stay speaking pain in codes
Desiring my presence, but communicating pain indirectly
Telling me you still care through a dial tone
Claiming to care through a disconnected phone line
Drugs you want to put my life on hold
Desire to pause my life with the influence of drugs
You really want to see my growing old with you
Wishing to age together despite naivety
Like a naive friend
Similar to an innocent friend
But I, I never want to face myself again
Reluctance to confront one's own identity
Unless I'm coming true
Only willing to face reality when it aligns with expectations
Speaking pain in codes
Expressing emotional distress indirectly
Telling you that I know I'm no good alone
Acknowledging that I'm not good on my own
I've tried so hard just to be myself
Struggling to maintain authenticity
But I've erased everything I was
Wiping out my past self
I tried searching for the truth alone
Attempting to discover the truth in isolation
And I remember everything I've done
Recalling and accepting all past actions
I'm thinking everything will turn out fine
Optimistically hoping for a positive outcome
But I'm a little kid without a soul
Feeling like a soulless child
Oh give me just a little bit more time
Requesting more time to figure things out
Just a little bit
(Repetition of line 22)
Say what you want to do to me or you
Open to whatever actions or words directed at me
I don't care right
Indifference to consequences
I've tried so hard just to be myself
Struggling to maintain authenticity (repeated)
But I've erased everything I was
Wiping out my past self (repeated)
I tried searching for the truth alone
Attempting to discover the truth in isolation (repeated)
And I remember everything I've done
Recalling and accepting all past actions (repeated)
I erased everything I know
Erasing all knowledge and experience
But I'm a little kid without a soul
Feeling like a soulless child (repeated)
Give me just a little bit more time to solve my future
Requesting additional time to resolve uncertainties about the future
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