Talking To Myself
Navigating Shadows: The Real Goonie Jay's Struggle with Self-Talk
Lyrics
I guess the cats outa bag
I've revealed a secret or shared something that was not meant to be disclosed.
I excel and than collapse
I succeed and then experience a downfall.
Feel the ceiling closin in and I'm just tryna react
I feel overwhelmed, with pressure mounting, and I'm trying to respond appropriately.
They say Pressure makes diamonds so I had to adapt
Adapting to pressure as it can lead to valuable outcomes, like diamonds formed under pressure.
I take two steps forward and take one step back
Progressing but facing setbacks, a metaphor for the challenges in moving forward.
I guess I'm honest with my myself at least I still got that
I'm honest with myself, finding solace in self-awareness.
They watch me makes every room so I feel compact
People closely observe and scrutinize my every move, making me feel confined.
Stuck in bubble with myself I know one wants that
Feeling isolated, trapped in my own thoughts, a state nobody desires.
Real talk true love is something I need back
Expressing a need for genuine love and connection.
Cuz when you talking to yourself, it's hard to gauge how you act
Communication with oneself is challenging, making self-evaluation difficult.
It's hard to judge the way the talk before the people react
It's hard to predict how people will react, complicating communication.
It's hard to balance out the confidence when everything bad
Balancing confidence becomes challenging when facing adversity.
When you been sacrificing happiness to fill up the bag
Prioritizing material gain over happiness has been a sacrifice.
I'm twenty-six with less funding than back at twenty-one
At 26, financially less stable than at 21, reflecting on past choices.
I'm fucked up in my feelings I'm tired of feeling them
Emotionally distressed, tired of experiencing negative feelings.
I'm tired of buying all the food I see you taking off the shelf
Expressing frustration about providing for others while struggling.
I'm tired of carrying the team When I can't carry myself
Bearing the weight of a team when struggling personally.
I had money in the day and balled out on some belts
Had money but spent it on luxury items like belts.
I had money fucked up it on shit I put on shelf
Misused funds, regretting purchases that were left unused.
And now it's crazy even with a plan I'm still up in a hell
Despite having a plan, still facing challenging circumstances.
I don't have a person I trust but myself
Lack of trust in others, relying only on oneself.
Fantasizing of better times with a silver linen
Daydreaming of better times and a more luxurious lifestyle.
Sticky situations like I spilled the Aunt Gemima
Facing difficult situations, likened to a mess created by spilled syrup (Aunt Jemima).
I'm tweaked out tryna figure how my impact giant
Feeling strained, trying to understand the impact of personal actions.
Young Goonie took the worst odds and got behind em
Facing challenges but overcoming unfavorable odds.
I know you really only fuck with me because I'm shinning
Aware that some people are drawn to success rather than genuine connection.
You could give the world the world the world won't give you kindness
Highlighting the disparity between giving and receiving kindness.
You could buy that girl some crystals but she want some diamonds
Material gifts may not fulfill deeper desires, like wanting diamonds instead of crystals.
A couple threatened murder Honestly I wish you would try it
Expressing a desire for authenticity, even if it involves confrontation.
Everybody tough when the story is private
People act tough privately, creating a contrast with their public image.
Everyone got an opinion why you think divided
Opinions are diverse, contributing to division among people.
Social media got you thinkin you making a profit
Reflecting on the distorted perception caused by social media.
When in reality a like ain't never turn to a dollar
Highlighting the disparity between online likes and actual financial gain.
You must be living a fantasy we know that's the problem
Calling attention to the illusionary nature of certain lifestyles.
Why you back stab ya man's for a couple a dollars
Criticizing betrayal for financial gain, questioning the motives behind such actions.
Like I ain't really take the time I wasted given you knowledge
Regretting the time wasted providing knowledge to someone unappreciative.
Opportunity is nothing if you don't got a product
Emphasizing that opportunities are meaningless without a tangible product or outcome.
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