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I thought you weren't contagious I thought I owned my inner-self
I believed you were not infectious, and I thought I had control over my true self.
You offer, now I forget the reason I can't have
You make an offer, but now I forget why I cannot accept it.
As you try hard to please me this need turns to greed down inside
While you make an effort to satisfy me, this need transforms into greed deep within.
I touch the hand of my sickness and feel my faith divide
I confront the reality of my illness, and I sense my faith or belief system breaking apart.
if I said I would, would you care? would you take me there?
If I promised to do something, would you care? Would you lead me to that place?
And feed my desire with your will to give
You nurture my longing with your willingness to give.
a distant storm and the lightning strikes the pouring rain feels warm tonight
A distant storm, with lightning striking and pouring rain that strangely feels warm tonight.
Thunder echoes and the lesson begins as one more time you take me in
Thunder echoes, and a lesson begins as you take me in once again.
But I look back at you and think of all the things I should have said and done
Reflecting on missed opportunities, I look back and regret the things I should have said and done.
But I can't talk no I can't talk I try to hide myself from shame
Unable to speak, I try to conceal myself from shame.
And try to share the blame for what I've done what have I done?
I attempt to share the blame for my actions, questioning what I have done.
now I said I would, do you care as you take me there
Now that I promised, do you care as you guide me to that place?
I taste my first time and now I can't turn away
I experience something for the first time, and now I cannot turn away from it.
I lie to myself like a man trying to understand
I deceive myself like someone trying to comprehend.
As you change my life with your will to give
You transform my life with your willingness to give.
I see disgrace and it's looking back at me
I witness disgrace, and it stares back at me.
Blame my desire for lies I live and breathe
Blaming my desires for the falsehoods I live and breathe.
Begin again though the hardest part to take
Starting anew, though the most challenging part to endure.
Behind my eyes you still remain
You still persist in my thoughts and emotions.
I thought you'd understand when you took me there
I thought you would comprehend when you led me there.
The hardest part to take you still remain
The most difficult part to endure, you still persist in my thoughts and emotions.
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