Always Think of You
Love's Painful Echo: Always Thinking of You
Lyrics
I was young and narcissistic
I was young and self-absorbed
Hellishly ambitious
Fiercely determined to succeed
Searching for some solid ground to stand upon
Seeking stability or a firm foundation
And reckless, all my actions senseless
My actions were reckless and irrational
Never thought of consequence
I didn't consider the outcomes of my actions
Until the day I heard you’d come along
Until I learned of your existence
And every night when I feel the space
At night, I feel the absence
I hold on tight to my pillowcase
I tightly hold onto my pillow, seeking comfort
Try to get a sense of you
Trying to understand you
Green, hazel or blue
Trying to discern your eye color
Staring back at me like a loaded gun
Your gaze feels intense, like a threat
I never knew it would hurt so much
I didn't anticipate the pain of longing
To want to love someone
To desire loving someone hurts deeply
In everything I do, in every stranger’s face
Your presence is reflected everywhere
In all the open places that I’m running to
I search for you in various places
I always thing of you
You're always on my mind
A wave of indecision that never seems to break
An ongoing uncertainty I can't resolve
A trail of hearts left bleeding in it’s wake
Leaving behind a trail of broken hearts
And in my search to be someone
In pursuit of identity, I lost myself
I lost sight of what I’ve become
I've lost sight of who I've become
I can’t recognize The sunken eyes
I don't recognize my own tired eyes
That are staring back at me like a loaded gun
My reflection is intense, almost threatening
I never knew it would hurt so much
The unexpected pain of longing persists
To want to love someone
Loving someone is unexpectedly painful
In everything I do, every stranger’s face
Your presence is evident in everything I encounter
In all the open places that I’m running to
Everywhere I go, you're in my thoughts
I always thing of you
You're constantly on my mind
I’ve been up since yesterday
I've been awake since yesterday
Been counting cars and wandering
Counting cars and aimlessly wandering
Through avenues and alleyways
Exploring streets and alleys
But it’s all the same
It all feels monotonously the same
Cause in every open place
But everywhere I stop, you're not dulled from my thoughts
That I stop into
My longing for you persists in every place
It never numbs the pain
Nothing alleviates the ache as I desire
Like I want it to
It doesn't soothe the pain as I wish
I always think of you
You're always in my thoughts
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