Hate You Now
Embracing Darkness: Toxic Reality's Battle with Love and Betrayal
Lyrics
Every week everybody always wanna see me weak
Weekly, people wish to witness my vulnerability.
But I can't let her see me fold no
Despite challenges, I won't show weakness to her.
I be standing ten toes
I stand firm, but uncertainty about my future.
I don't know where imma go
Uncertain about my destination.
Fuck 'em I don't know imma stay on the road
Indifferent to others; I'll continue on my path.
Keep the adventure going yeah imma be a soldier
Will embrace challenges and be resilient like a soldier.
Yeah i'm in these streets i'm feeling bolder
Confident in the streets, gaining courage.
Fuck you fuck you I don't even trust you but I love you
Expressing mixed emotions: distrust and love.
Love you family turn quicker than some blood do
Highlighting the unpredictability of family bonds.
Blood do I don't even know what imma gon do gon do
Uncertain about my actions in the face of family loyalty.
Yeah everybody expects the worst from me
Others anticipate negative outcomes from me.
Yeah i'm so ugly inside well that's what they all think
Perceived as internally troubled by others.
No i'm not no i'm fucking not
Denying the negative self-perception.
Yeah i swear to god that i'm out here
Asserting confidence in my actions and lifestyle.
I'm rocking like a god yah
Confidently succeeding and living like a deity.
I don't even wanna hear from you
Rejecting communication from specific individuals.
You broke my heart yeah I don't even fuck witchu
Refusing association with someone who hurt me.
On drugs everyday feeling fucking blue yeah
Experiencing daily struggles and feeling down.
Who the fuck are you yeah
Questioning the identity of someone causing distress.
I fucking love you but I hate you now uhh
Expressing conflicting emotions of love and hate.
I don't care because i'm drowning out
Indifferent to external opinions, focused on drowning them out.
Yeah they told me make the fucking sound
Advised to create a distinctive sound, now successful.
So I did so I did now we rocking out
Enjoying the success of my song, now at peace.
To my mother fucking song now i'm laying down
Reflecting on my journey while lying down.
Off the drugs so I feel like i'm passing out
Suffering from drug effects, feeling like passing out.
Everybody on me yeah I got some love now
Receiving love from some, but cautious of trust.
For the ones that I don't ever trust now
Distrustful of certain individuals despite newfound love.
Yeah every year i'm searching for some love now
Continuously seeking love year after year.
Yeah everyday I really wanna lay down
Expressing a desire to rest and escape.
I don't wanna get up let's go do some drugs now
Contemplating drug use to cope with reality.
Let's get drunk now yeah let's get fucked up now
Expressing a desire to get drunk and intoxicated.
Smoke a blunt so I could really fucking come down
Using substances to come down from emotional highs.
Oh yeah and the drugs they gon go round
Anticipating the circulation of drugs at a party.
Thru the party everybody gonna love em now
Expecting widespread appreciation for drugs at the party.
They gonna love 'em now that's the next best thing
Recognizing drug use as a popular trend.
Everybody fucked up off the codeine
Acknowledging the prevalence of codeine abuse.
Or the xanax or the mother fucking percy's
Listing various drugs commonly used.
Perc thirty's now I'm fucking lurking yeah i'm lurking
Expressing a sense of lurking danger associated with drugs.
Yeah it's fucking toxic yeah this is my reality
Acknowledging a toxic reality associated with drug use.
Yeah in a couple years I don't know where i'll be
Uncertain about my future in a few years.
Buzz buzz yeah I got it buzz lightyear blasting off
Feeling a buzz, likened to Buzz Lightyear taking off.
Yeah I got it fuck the cops fto bitch throw my sign up
Defying authority, proudly displaying my sign.
Yeah I fucking rep all my things imma go nuts
Proudly representing my possessions, ready to go crazy.
Yeah I fucking die every single night
Expressing a nightly struggle and desire to escape.
I wanna get high when I wake up
Expressing a desire to get high upon waking up.
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