Imma Lie
Navigating Shadows: Velvetears' Struggle with Anxiety and Sobriety
Lyrics
I been keeping it real low
I've been maintaining a low profile
There's some things no body knows
There are things about me that nobody knows
Either turn up when I go out
I choose to be lively when I go out
Rather just turn down at home
Prefer to be quiet and reserved at home
Drugs make me feel less alone
Drugs provide a sense of companionship and alleviate loneliness
Turn around everyone's gone
Turning around, everyone has disappeared
Imma always be the bad guy I know it
I acknowledge that I'll always be perceived as the antagonist
Imma lie to the world and say I aint been poppin for anxiety
I will deceive the world by denying my use of substances for anxiety
And Imma lie to myself when it goes under my tongue that this is my sobriety
I will deceive myself by claiming that substances under my tongue are for sobriety
And no one has your back unless your on your death bed
No one supports you unless you're facing a life-threatening situation
Baby don't you cry to me
Don't express your vulnerability to me
Imma lie to the world and say I aint been poppin for anxiety
I will deceive the world again about using substances to cope with anxiety
Tell me how I'm supposed to stop
Expressing the difficulty of stopping certain behaviors
Filling up all of these cups
Struggling with excessive consumption, possibly of substances
When I wish someone would end this all for me
Expressing a desire for someone to end the pain
Tell me how I'm supposed to stop
Dealing with the challenge of stopping actions that lead to vomiting
Takin pills til I throw up
Taking pills until experiencing nausea
When I think about what I have seen
Reflecting on the consequences of past experiences
It's back and forth how much I need it
Describing the ambivalence and internal struggle about needing substances
Yeah my drugs are so conceited
Substances have a self-centered influence, convincing the individual of their worth
They convince me that I'm nothing without them
Feeling that one is nothing without the influence of substances
How many times can I say that it feels good to get off them
Questioning the positive feelings of getting off substances
Before there's some truth behind it
Wondering if the positive experiences are genuine
Imma lie to the world and say I aint been poppin for anxiety
Continuing the deception about using substances to cope with anxiety
And imma lie to myself when it goes under my tongue that this is my sobriety
Deceiving oneself about substances under the tongue being a form of sobriety
And no one has your back unless your on your death bed
Highlighting the lack of support unless facing a life-threatening situation
Baby don't you cry to me
Advising not to express vulnerability during difficult times
Imma lie to the world and say I aint been poppin for anxiety
Repeating the deception regarding the use of substances for anxiety
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