Lyrics
Why do I wake up
Questioning the purpose of waking up
If every day is so mundane
Expressing dissatisfaction with the monotony of everyday life
It's a thought I can't shake off
Feeling unable to dismiss a certain thought
There's a special place for that heartache
Recognizing a designated space for heartbreak
You can't put on your makeup
Makeup can't conceal true emotions or struggles
It don't cover up what you thought it does
Makeup doesn't hide the pain as expected
When the scars fresh it still shows up
Visible emotional scars even when they are fresh
You're alone you've got no one
Feeling lonely and without support
I'll still call you baby
Despite everything, still expressing affection
I know you're so sick of waiting
Acknowledging impatience and frustration with waiting
Loving you is intimidating
Describing the difficulty of loving someone
Pull me closer while I'm fading
Seeking closeness despite personal struggles
You're doing fine
Reassuring that the other person is doing fine
And I've been trying to move on
Attempting to move on from a situation
But this shit don't feel right
Expressing discomfort with the current state of affairs
And I've been caught inside feeling too much
Feeling overwhelmed by emotions
If I can't get a grip I'm sick of walking backwards
Frustration with the inability to move forward
I've lived the cycle learned the patterns
Having experienced and learned from a repetitive cycle
But how much of this really matters
Questioning the significance of past experiences
Cause if I lose you what comes after
Fear of the unknown if the relationship is lost
I can't keep making excuses for all of your fucked up actions
Tired of making excuses for problematic behavior
It's at my expense and at my defense I feel more like your distraction
Feeling like a distraction rather than a priority
If you're gonna cut loose
If a decision to end the relationship is made
Give me my cue
Asking for a signal or indication
I could pack up and go hide in my room
Considering withdrawing and isolating oneself
What can I do
Feeling helpless and unsure of what to do
I won't get through
Unable to overcome challenges
Blew a whole bag cause I spent it on you
Regret for spending resources on the other person
And you don't call me baby
Expressing frustration with lack of communication
That's that shit that drives me crazy
Specific behavior causing distress
Fuck your life up make you hate me
Willingness to disrupt the other person's life
Trust your gut I'm not worth saving
Advising to trust instincts regarding self-worth
You're doing fine
Reassuring that the other person is still doing fine
And I've been trying to move on
Continuing efforts to move on
But this shit don't feel right
Emphasizing the ongoing discomfort
And I've been caught inside feeling too much
Feeling overwhelmed by emotions (repeated)
If I can't get a grip I'm sick of walking backwards
Frustration with the inability to move forward (repeated)
I've lived the cycle learned the patterns
Reiterating the experience of a repetitive cycle
But how much of this really matters
Questioning the significance of past experiences (repeated)
Cause if I lose you what comes after
Fear of the unknown if the relationship is lost (repeated)
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