Lyrics
I'm gonna pour up today
I plan to drink alcohol today.
Don't give a fuck what you say
I don't care about your opinions.
It's never too late
It's never too late to address issues.
Got too many damn problems coming my way
I have many problems coming my way.
Just a colorful array
Life is like a colorful display.
Like stars dying, turn to gray
Life experiences, like stars, fade to gray.
What once was, was shining
Something that used to shine brightly is now dull.
Now it's burnt out so hey
What was once vibrant is now extinguished.
I told you I'd see you when I am alright
I promised to meet you when I'm okay, but it seems it'll take longer.
It looks like that's gonna be longer
Extended reference to struggling with personal issues.
Tonight I'm gone
Expressing a state of emotional detachment tonight.
I'm fucked up and all I want is you
Feeling messed up, desiring a connection with someone.
You turned me away
You rejected me.
Told me to get help I tried to
Advice to seek help was given but difficult to follow.
No one understands
A sense of isolation, as no one understands the struggles.
What kind of hell you have been through
Acknowledging a difficult past or experiences.
I'm doing all that I can
Struggling to avoid a downward spiral.
To keep myself from slipping off the edge
Battling intrusive thoughts and memories.
These images play in my mind and it's you
Haunted by thoughts of a past relationship.
And your getting with another guy
Imagining the ex-partner with someone else.
And it won't go away if I just close my eyes
Escaping from reality won't make the thoughts disappear.
So you better believe that tonight
Determined to face the emotional pain tonight.
Imma empty the bottle or die
Considering extreme actions due to emotional distress.
I'd give it all up for you
Willing to sacrifice everything for the person.
Your the only reason I'm here
The person is the reason for existence.
You gave me hope that I never knew
Received hope and purpose from the person.
Your love is now my home
The person's love is now a source of comfort and stability.
You opened up my heart inside
Emotional intimacy provided by the person.
Now I never feel alone
Feeling supported and not alone anymore.
I'm trying my best to change
Struggling to change for the better.
But these scars got a deep hold on my mind
Past wounds and traumas still affect the mind.
I'd give it all up for you
Reiteration of the willingness to sacrifice everything.
Your the only reason I'm here
The person remains the primary motivation for existence.
You gave me hope that I never knew
Gratitude for the hope and stability provided by the person.
Your love is now my home
The person's love is a secure and comforting place.
You opened up my heart inside
The person has filled the emotional void.
Now I never feel alone
Feeling emotionally supported and connected.
I'm trying my best to change
Struggling to overcome deep-seated issues.
But these scars got a deep hold on my mind
Persistent impact of past scars on the mind.
I'm losing you I know
Realization of losing the person.
You don't want to hear me
Repeating the difficulty in being heard by the person.
You don't want to hear me say
Expressing frustration that the person refuses to listen.
I'm trying
Expressing an earnest effort to convey thoughts and feelings.
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