Bad at Being Sad
Navigating Heartache: Whey Jennings' 'Bad at Being Sad' Embraces Grief
Lyrics
I can't look at pictures
I struggle to look at pictures of you.
And I can't say your name
I find it difficult to utter your name.
You're no longer here with us
You are no longer alive or present.
And there ain't no one to blame
There is no one to blame for your absence.
Everyday I cry
I cry every day.
And at night time too
I also cry at night due to the pain of your departure.
'Cause you're gone for good this time
You are permanently gone this time, and I feel helpless.
And there's not a damn thing I can do
I can't change the situation, and it frustrates me.
And I'm mad and I'm sad and I'm bad at being sad
I am experiencing anger, sadness, and difficulty in expressing sadness.
Doing things I don't believe in
I engage in activities that go against my beliefs to numb the pain.
Just to numb the hurt that I have
This numbness is a coping mechanism for the emotional pain.
And I can't figure out if I need a preacher or a pill
I'm unsure whether I need spiritual guidance or medication to cope.
One to numb the pain but the other one is trained to heal
One option numbs the pain, while the other is trained to provide healing.
I'm sad becasue I miss you
Sadness is due to missing you.
and I'm mad 'cause I don't know what to do
Anger stems from not knowing how to deal with the situation.
I'm just bad at being sad and not too damn good at missing you
I struggle with expressing sadness and miss you inadequately.
I keep my head spinning with a million and one different thoughts
I keep my mind busy with various thoughts to avoid the most painful one.
To forget the one thought that can completely tears me apart
Avoiding the thought that causes immense emotional pain.
I want to take a trip down memory lane
I desire to revisit our shared memories.
And see things that made us laugh
Recalling moments that brought us joy.
But without you here I can't go there
Unable to revisit those memories without you.
So I just avoid the past
I choose to avoid dwelling on the past.
I'm tired of waiting on time to make it all feel better
I'm tired of waiting for time to heal the pain.
I'll never speak to you again, so I'll just write you this letter
I communicate my feelings through a letter, as I won't speak to you again.
Pouring out my heart and soul; pen thoughts till my hands quiver
Pouring out my emotions through written words.
Just a stagger written word to never be delivered.
A letter that will never be delivered, expressing deep feelings.
And I'm mad and I'm sad and I'm bad at being sad
Experiencing anger and sadness, struggling to express sadness.
Even though I'd know you were leaving
Knowing you were leaving doesn't make coping easier.
Don't make it easier now
Making threats, even divine intervention can't help me now.
I say lots of threats even god can't help me out
Expressing frustration at the divine force that took you away.
'Cause he the one that took you to his home above the clouds
Acknowledging that a higher power is caring for you now.
I'm not mad I know he's loving you
Acknowledging the love from a higher power but still struggling.
But I'm sad 'cause I don't know what to do
Sadness persists due to uncertainty about what to do.
I'm just bad at being sad and not damn good at missing you
Inadequacy in expressing sadness and missing you.
Yeah I'm bad at being sad and not too damn good at missing you
Continued struggle with expressing sadness and missing you.
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