Lyrics
Beauty queen of only 18, she
Describing a young woman as a beauty queen at the age of 18.
Had some trouble with herself
Indicating that she had personal issues or difficulties.
Your sister was the one who stayed supplying
Suggesting that the sister was involved in providing something, possibly related to the troubles.
And you were the one in person denying
Implying the person (singer) denies their own involvement or responsibility in the problems.
About your addictions and the shit you were buying
Referring to addictions and questionable purchases contributing to the issues.
But I had looked you in the eyes and I knew you'd been crying
Expressing empathy by acknowledging the person's emotional pain through crying.
Scars up and down how they're lining your hands
Noticing physical scars on the person's hands and describing them.
And you would show me the songs by your favorite bands
Recalling moments of connection through shared music preferences.
I knew you were different I knew you were gone
Perceiving a change in the person's behavior and feeling they are emotionally distant.
You were physically there but you would string me along
Despite physical presence, the person feels emotionally detached and strung along.
Saw you on a list you're a missing person
Discovering the person listed as a missing individual.
When you fled to the coast know you felt determined
Noting determination in the person's decision to leave for the coast.
There ain't shit left here we don't need Fresno
Expressing a lack of attachment to the current location (Fresno).
Wish I'd take us both so we'd just let go
Wishing for a mutual release from the current situation.
Alter the names then I'd alter the face
Considering changing identities and appearance for a fresh start.
That I've fucking been given imma call to replace
Expressing a desire to replace the given circumstances.
Imma find you and hide my attempt to restart
Planning to find the person and start anew, despite personal struggles.
Said I've been so great but I'm falling apart
Acknowledging personal difficulties while expressing determination to reconnect.
Beauty queen of only 18, she
Repeating the initial description of the young woman.
Had some trouble with herself
Reiterating that she faced internal challenges.
2014 last time I seen her
Referring to the last time the singer saw her in 2014.
Felt that I'd be the one who would love and complete her
Believing that the singer could provide love and completeness.
Days daydreaming it seems
Reflecting on days spent daydreaming about the person.
So far but it's closer to me what it means
Feeling a sense of proximity to the person despite physical distance.
They wouldn't grip no they wouldn't get
Anticipating challenges and obstacles in the relationship.
You and I we're the ones who would break from the set
Believing that both individuals are distinct from the rest and would break away.
We're done with the rest this pain in my chest
Expressing emotional pain, particularly in the chest area.
But I wanna be with you if I'm staying depressed
Desiring to be with the person despite the emotional struggles.
You had someplace somewhere you would call home
Noting that the person had a place they considered home.
You admit it was shit everyday to atone
Admitting that the home environment was challenging and required daily atonement.
Dealt with your sister mom and your dad
Acknowledging the challenges with the person's family.
I was open to talk I had sense it was bad
Offering openness to communication about the difficulties.
Texted a while no answer I dial
Experiencing frustration as calls go unanswered.
Got a forwarded call so I start to compile
Compiling information from any available source to find clues about the person's whereabouts.
Anything that I found any kind of a clue
Expressing the exhaustive search for any information.
But the trail went dark still searching for you
Continuing to search for the person despite encountering difficulties.
Beauty queen of only 18, she
Emphasizing that she faced inner challenges.
Had some trouble with herself
Concluding with a repetition of the person's struggles.
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