Lyrics
For a long while now I don't dread death
Expressing a lack of fear or concern about death over an extended period.
I won't make till 30 I won't hold my breath
Not expecting to live past 30 and not holding hope for it.
I can feel it in my bones I can feel I'm getting bored
Sensing a growing sense of boredom within oneself.
I can think of all the shit that I don't wanna settle for
Reflecting on things one refuses to accept or settle for.
In then I'm out whisper and shout
Experiencing fluctuations between being inwardly quiet and outwardly expressive.
Heard YCK he don't stop with the sound
Acknowledging YCK's continuous dedication to his musical sound.
How could anybody give a fuck bout me
Expressing a sense of insignificance, questioning if anyone cares about the artist.
And in spite of all the songs they all wanna doubt me
Despite creating songs, there's skepticism and doubt from others.
Bruised up skin all my wounds cauterized
Describing physical scars and indicating emotional trauma.
Everything I been through you could say I'm traumatized
Claiming a high level of distress due to life experiences.
Bitch don't speak cause you ain't qualified
Warning someone unqualified against speaking.
Spit murdering words you could say it's homicide
Using powerful words, equating speech to murder, possibly metaphorically.
Last made attempt wanna change your appearance
Expressing a desire for personal change without others' approval.
You wanna bump the new me but you weren't given the clearance
Others not given permission to embrace the artist's new self.
When ya say what they say and then you do what they do
Cautioning against blindly following others' actions and losing individuality.
You're like a whole nother clone straying far from the truth
Comparing imitating others to becoming a clone, straying from personal truth.
I'm not any new messiah
Denying being a savior figure; embracing the role of an outcast or pariah.
Removed call me the pariah
Accepting the label of a pariah, an individual rejected by society.
I'm not any superhuman
Rejecting claims of superhuman abilities.
Deceived by my own delusion
Admitting being deceived by personal illusions or false beliefs.
Cold on the couch still got a pound
Physically present but feeling disconnected, possibly due to substance use.
Of the Snow White dream but I feel out of bounds
Possessing a substance but feeling out of place or uncomfortable.
Might be sick though I ain't concerned
Indifference to potential illness or issues; skepticism toward others' words.
When that'll be the last time that I take your word
Distrust in others' words, implying a previous breach of trust.
Spilled my drink then I spilled my guts
Accidental spillage and openness contrasted with being cautious about drug-related death.
Won't be so sure that I die by drugs
Ambiguity about the cause of potential death, avoiding a definitive statement.
If I do that tread light till I go
Requesting caution if death occurs by drug use.
Better that way than a dull knife to my throat
Expressing a preference for a certain type of death over another.
Been three weeks no physical contact
Isolation from physical contact and a detachment from others.
Outta sight outta mind no visual contract
Out of sight, out of mind; lack of visual reminders of others.
No hands held got a personal bubble
Preferential distance, not holding hands, and valuing personal space.
And when it's dark outside I'll be looking for trouble
Seeking trouble or excitement when alone in the dark.
Metabolizing all of the poison I put inside me
Mentally processing the effects of harmful substances ingested.
I'm a fucking lone wolf and these people they won't invite me
Embracing a solitary lifestyle, feeling uninvited by others.
Don't need a set cause I won't play at a party
Rejecting participation in social gatherings or conforming to set norms.
I'd rather get blacked out I'll be sipping Bacardi
Choosing intoxication over social engagement.
I'm not any new messiah
Reiterating the rejection of a messiah-like role.
Removed call me the pariah
Accepting the label of a pariah, emphasizing removal from societal norms.
I'm not any superhuman
Rejecting claims of superhuman abilities again.
Deceived by my own delusion
Acknowledging being misled by personal illusions or false beliefs once more.
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