Lyrics
I'm not the same person that I was before
I have undergone a significant personal change.
I had a girl that loved me more than anything, but I destroyed it cause of problems I chose to ignore
I had a loving relationship, but I ruined it by ignoring problems.
She completed me, that piece is now missing, I know that I'm not worthy of her anymore
She completed me, but I acknowledge I'm no longer deserving of her.
I still love that girl to death, but her feelings have all but left, and it still hurts me to my core
Despite still loving her, her feelings have diminished, causing deep pain.
I made a mistake, I made a mistake, yeah
I admit making a serious mistake.
I can never take it back, but I regret the break-ups
I can't undo the past, but I regret the consequences of the break-up.
I know I won't get that lucky twice so I stay stuck
I realize the rarity of finding such love and feel stuck in the aftermath.
Tellin' me you want me dead, thin line between hate and love
Dealing with intense emotions, recognizing a thin line between love and hate.
Every time I get to talk to you, you never say much
Communication with you is limited, and it bothers me.
I keep making songs about you cause you're all I think about
I express my thoughts about you through my songs.
Wish I could go back in time and choose a different route
I wish I could go back and make different choices.
You said you never loved somebody so much, I don't feel it now
Your claimed deep love seems absent now, and I feel it.
Cause I'm the only one that's fightin' for it, baby hear me out
I'm the only one fighting for our relationship; please hear me out.
I made mistakes, people fuck up every now and then
Admitting mistakes, acknowledging human fallibility.
But look at how I'm trynna make it right to see you smile again
Trying to make amends and see you happy again.
Pour my heart into a text, I can't see you in the flesh
Pouring emotions into a text, unable to meet in person.
I'm a mess, I confess, but I loved you nonetheless
Despite being a mess, I confess my enduring love for you.
I'm not perfect, but I shoulda been what you deserve
Acknowledging imperfection, realizing what you deserve.
Never meant to ruin you, I had to fuck it up to learn
Unintentionally causing harm, learning through mistakes.
I know I'm gettin' on your nerves, tryin' only made it worse
Understanding I may have aggravated the situation by trying.
I know I gotta let you go, even if it hurts
Accepting the painful necessity of letting you go.
I don't wanna miss you
Expressing a desire not to miss you.
I don't wanna miss you anymore
Reiterating the unwillingness to miss you anymore.
I know I got issues
Acknowledging personal issues that contribute to the pain.
But I'm tired of seeing all these empty bottles on the floor
Tired of witnessing the aftermath of destructive behavior.
Now my heart is damaged, hmm
Expressing a damaged heart.
I hurt you and I hurt myself
Recognizing the pain inflicted on you and myself.
I don't know if I can manage
Doubting my ability to handle the consequences.
I want you happy, but not with someone else
Desiring your happiness, but struggling with the idea of you with someone else.
I don't wanna miss you, hmmm
Repeating the unwillingness to miss you.
I don't wanna miss you anymore
Reiterating the desire not to miss you anymore.
I know I got issues
Acknowledging personal issues affecting the relationship.
But I'm tired of seeing all these empty bottles on the floor
Tired of the visible consequences of destructive behavior.
Now my heart is damaged, hmm
Expressing a damaged heart once again.
I hurt you and I hurt myself
Acknowledging the pain caused to you and myself once more.
I don't know if I can manage
Doubting my ability to manage the situation.
I want you happy, but not with someone else
Desiring your happiness but not with someone else.
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