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I been waitin' up all night for you
I have been staying awake all night, anticipating your presence
Makes me think that you don't care
It gives me the impression that you may not care about me
I try as much as possible
I make an effort to prioritize our relationship
That effort goes a long way
Putting effort into the relationship has a significant impact
My feelings are my obstacles
My emotions become challenges or hindrances
You never hear me say don't go
Despite the difficulties, I never tell you not to leave
I don't know if I want you to
Uncertainty about whether I want you to stay or leave
I'm scared of what happens
Fear of the consequences of falling too deeply in love with you
When I fall too in love witchu
Expressing apprehension about the potential outcomes of intense love
I tried to make you comfortable
I attempted to create a comfortable environment for you
That comfort made me vulnerable
However, that comfort made me emotionally vulnerable
I'm scared of what can take you from me
Fearful of losing you to unforeseen circumstances
I don't know what else to do
Feeling helpless, not knowing what else to do
I'm beggin' you, come home to me
Pleading for your return, emphasizing your choice in the matter
You did this 'cause you wanted to, I swear
Believing that your actions were intentional and deliberate
This is what goes on inside my head when you're not here
Revealing inner thoughts and struggles when you're not present
I'm scared I'll get a call from someone telling me you're dead
Fearful of receiving news of your death from someone else
I'm not my joking my emotions
Asserting the seriousness of emotions, not making jokes about them
On this wall I painted red
Symbolic reference to emotional pain portrayed through red paint
I don't know what I'm doin'
Expressing confusion and uncertainty about personal actions
I could never understand, aye
Acknowledging a lack of understanding in certain situations
I let you do the shit in front of me
Allowing certain behaviors to happen in one's presence
And you're addicted baby
Acknowledging a loved one's addiction
I know you don't wanna be
Acknowledging that the loved one may not want to be addicted
I'm trynna save you, I'll settle for you beside of me
Expressing a desire to save the loved one and be together
And if I lose you, then I loved you more than anything
If the loved one is lost, the love for them was profound
I promise I'm so proud of you baby
Proud of the loved one's achievements and progress
You've come a long way
Acknowledging the loved one's journey and growth
Exercised demons, long battle, but you broke the chains
Successfully overcoming challenges and breaking free from negativity
I'm glad you made it home to me, I swear
Grateful for the loved one's return and a reduction in worry
Now I don't worry like I used to
Experiencing less fear and worry now that the loved one is back
I'm no longer scared
No longer afraid due to trust in the loved one
Feelings in my heart, I hope I never find again
Expressing a hope to avoid certain painful feelings in the future
I trust you bae, go hard for what you want in life, I'm in
Trust in the loved one's determination and commitment to goals
Won't judge you for the past that ain't somewhere I wanna live
Refusing to judge the loved one for past mistakes
We fell in love you're it
Confirming a deep and lasting love
You're my person, even ugly versions
Expressing love even in challenging and unattractive moments
Water under bridge
Past issues are forgiven and considered insignificant
True love always comes with hurt it's worth it
True love is acknowledged to come with pain but is deemed worthwhile
Play the hand we're dealt
Accepting and dealing with the circumstances at hand
I know you never needed my help
Acknowledging that the loved one never needed assistance before
When you were losin' yourself
Offering support during challenging times when the loved one was lost
I'd give you pieces of me
Symbolic gesture of giving one's own self to support the loved one
Woah
An exclamation indicating intensity or surprise
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