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What if I'm really the worst?
Expressing self-doubt, questioning one's worth or capabilities
And my friends don't want me around, they're just too polite
Suspecting that friends might not genuinely enjoy company, but are polite
Do people think I'm a jerk?
Wondering if others perceive the person as unpleasant or unlikable
Cause I seem indifferent and cold, but I'm just kinda shy
Appearing distant due to shyness, not actual indifference
And I wish that I knew how to take a compliment
Desiring the ability to accept compliments, struggling with self-belief
But I can't believe that anyone is genuine
Doubting the sincerity of people's intentions when giving compliments
And I don't really wanna think about it
Avoiding thinking about self-doubt and insecurities
But all I ever do is think about it, still
Despite efforts, constantly consumed by thoughts of self-worth
I know I say too many sorries
Acknowledging excessive apologizing as a habit
Spend too much time at pity parties in my head
Frequently dwelling on negative thoughts during internal "pity parties"
I can't tell if I talk too much, or I don't say enough
Uncertainty about communication style, fearing it's inadequate or excessive
It's like I don't believe that anyone could like me for me
Struggling to believe others genuinely like the person for who they are
Is my mom really proud?
Questioning if parental pride is authentic or obligatory
Or does she say that she is 'cause she has to be?
Suspecting parental support might be out of obligation, not genuine pride
And when you're out in the crowd,
Considering if people show support out of pity rather than genuine interest
Are you just singing along 'cause you feel bad for me?
Wondering if crowd participation is due to sympathy rather than enjoyment
I know I say too many sorries
Reiterating the tendency to apologize excessively
Spend too much time at pity parties in my head
Continuing the pattern of dwelling on self-pity in thoughts
I can't tell if I talk too much, or I don't say enough
Expressing uncertainty about effective communication, self-doubt persists
It's like I don't believe that anyone could like me for me
Repeating the struggle to believe others genuinely appreciate the person
What if I'm really the worst?
Revisiting the fear of being the worst, questioning self-worth
And it's not just paranoia setting in
Suspecting that negative thoughts are not just paranoia but might be true
I overthink 'til it hurts, I second guess every word
Experiencing excessive overthinking and self-doubt, causing emotional pain
Feels like it's some sort of curse
Feeling as though self-doubt is a persistent and damaging curse
I know I say too many sorries
Reiterating the tendency to apologize excessively
Spend too much time at pity parties in my head
Continuing the pattern of dwelling on self-pity in thoughts
I can't tell if I talk too much, or I don't say enough
Expressing uncertainty about effective communication, self-doubt persists
It's like I don't believe that anyone could like me for me
Repeating the struggle to believe others genuinely appreciate the person
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