Deterioration
Journey Beyond Grief: After Smoke Clears' Poignant Reflections on Loss
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Two thousand one hundred and ninety days since you left the body
Reflecting on the 2190 days since the person departed from the physical body.
Flown high through the sky, journeyed to an astral plane
Describing the departed's journey to a spiritual realm, high in the sky.
Another dimension far away
Reference to another distant dimension.
Eleven years of suffering ended, it's hard to comprehend the weight
Eleven years of suffering have ended, expressing difficulty in comprehending the burden lifted.
Lifted from these tired shoulders
Feeling both freedom and grief now that the burden is lifted.
I feel freedom and grief, you are gone
Expressing the emotional impact of the person's departure.
A prisoner in my own home
Feeling like a prisoner in one's own home due to the emotional weight.
I'm locked up in this cage surrounded with people and all alone
Describing a sense of isolation despite being surrounded by people.
Must hide the rage, there is nowhere to go
Feeling the need to hide anger and frustration with no outlet.
Perpetual supervision, a constant state of inhibition, family in derision
Describing a life under constant supervision, inhibition, and family discord.
I'm alone, home turned into a domestic prison
Home turning into a metaphorical domestic prison.
Confusion and delusion now your default mode
Noting the confusion and delusion as the default state of mind.
Knocking on the door of your mind but there is nobody home
Metaphorically knocking on the departed person's mind, finding it empty.
Every day I try to make a heaven right out of hell
Attempting to find positivity in a challenging situation.
But I'm suffocating and locked up in a cell
Feeling trapped and suffocated despite efforts to create a positive environment.
Misdiagnosis on two occasions, deteriorating body and mind
Referring to misdiagnoses affecting both body and mind.
Personality slipped away, left to decay
Noting the deterioration of personality and its decay.
All I can do is prey
Expressing a sense of helplessness, resorting to prayer.
Make this stop, it's a nightmare, it's a living hell
Describing the current situation as a living nightmare.
Will someone care? In the pit of despair light I can't see
Expressing despair and questioning if anyone will care.
From eternal struggle set me free
Seeking freedom from an eternal struggle and despair.
Confusion and delusion now your default mode
Repetition of confusion and delusion as a recurring theme.
Knocking on the door of your mind but there is nobody home
Reiterating the emptiness found in the departed person's mind.
Every day I try to make a heaven right out of hell
Continuing efforts to find positivity amid challenges.
But I'm suffocating and locked up in a cell
Feeling imprisoned and suffocated despite attempts at improvement.
Body decomposed, spirit still lives on
Acknowledging the physical decay of the body but the persistence of the spirit.
Figure of vigour, eternally strong
Describing the departed as a figure of strength even in death.
You took the lessons learned, returned into earth
Highlighting the lessons learned by the departed person and their return to the earth.
Endless lifecycle of life death and rebirth
Portraying the endless cycle of life, death, and rebirth.
Grief has passed, now I see clearly
Expressing the passage of grief and gaining clarity.
I can feel your legacy inside me
Sensing the enduring influence and impact of the departed person's legacy.
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