Lyrics
My heart loves you but your words, I despised
Expressing conflicted feelings: Love for someone but disdain for their words.
My heart curses you but your words, I desiredThere ain't now way I can hear you, sweet motherUnbearrable, being close to you, dear mother
Mixed emotions: Cursing and desiring words, unable to tolerate being close to the mother.
I was just a boy when that evil came and bothered
Recalling a traumatic event from childhood when evil caused trouble.
I was just a boy when that evil came and slaugthered
Similar to line 3, emphasizing the impact of evil during childhood.
There ain't now way I can hear you, sweet motherUnbearrable, being close to you, dear mother
Reiteration of difficulty hearing the mother, expressing unbearable closeness.
I was hiding.. behind many tools, to get me away from your noisesA pain no one would never hear and I couldn't get
Describing hiding behind tools to escape noise, hinting at unheard pain.
A tale… between me and youThe beggining of the plight
Introducing a tale between the speaker and the mother, the beginning of a difficult journey.
The beggining…. of our sufferings
Highlighting the commencement of suffering between the speaker and the mother.
Your final last words are my biggest sorrowsThe sickness that binds us are losing their tommorows
The speaker's sorrow from the mother's final words and the diminishing hope for a better future.
Shut Up, Shut Up, you turn me explosive and I've gone insane
An explosion of emotions, indicating a state of madness provoked by the mother's words.
I wish you could see the pain inside, so you can trust meI wish you could believe the pain inside so you can help me (live with it)
Expressing a desire for understanding and trust, wishing the mother could perceive the internal pain.
Your words have made me… explosive and i've gone insane
Attributing explosiveness and insanity to the impact of the mother's words.
I fucked it all up (x2) I felt like dying
Admitting mistakes and expressing a sense of despair and a desire for death.
Your final last words are my biggest sorrowsThe sickness that binds us are losing their tommorows
Reiteration of sorrow from the mother's final words and the fading hope for a better future.
Shut Up, Shut Up, you turn me explosive and I've gone insane!
Repeating the impact of the mother's words, causing the speaker to become explosive and insane.
My joy I found it away from your voicesI felt so close to you, mother dearest
Finding joy away from the mother's influence and feeling close to her in a different way.
A sound from me to you as a torture
Describing communication with the mother as a form of torture.
You became my monster
Labeling the mother as a "monster," possibly due to her negative impact.
You became my monster
Reiteration, emphasizing the transformation of the mother into a negative force.
And it's on the D-day you've fucking waved me a final last goodbye
Recalling a significant farewell from the mother on a crucial day.
My joy I found it away from your voicesI felt so close to you, mother dearest(I love you mother)
Repeating the theme of finding joy away from the mother but expressing love simultaneously.
(On top of this desease that parts us, I hated you; hated you, fuck it all upYour venal addiction, biopolarity plus your poor maneuvers
Expressing hatred for the mother due to disease, addiction, and poor behavior.
But I remember above all your self giving,
Acknowledging the mother's selflessness and positive qualities.
Your beliefs about me et your free spirit
Recognizing the mother's beliefs and free spirit as memorable traits.
You ended up getting carried away by this fucking poison
Concluding with the mother succumbing to a destructive influence, possibly a substance.
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