The Pain I Own
Unveiling Emotional Turmoil: "The Pain I Own" by Twin Tides
Lyrics
I used to think I had the answers
The speaker once believed they had solutions or understanding.
A hope in something I could find
They sought hope or meaning in something specific.
But hope became a bitter cancer
Hope turned into a negative force, consuming and spreading like a disease.
And grew in me stealing all of my time
It took over the speaker's life, stealing their time and energy.
That's why I retreated from you
The speaker distanced themselves from someone (you).
I came unglued
They felt emotionally unstable or disconnected.
Separated myself from you
Intentionally isolated themselves from the same person.
Kept my distance
Maintained a physical and emotional gap.
Parasitic hope to steal my fight
Refers to the hope draining the speaker's strength or determination.
That's why I keep you close
The speaker keeps this person close to conceal their inner pain.
So no one else can know
They hide the extent of their suffering from others.
The pain I own
The pain the speaker experiences is personal and deeply owned.
If only you'd listen
Desire for understanding from the listener (you).
You might understand this
If the listener pays attention, they might comprehend the speaker's feelings.
All I've been speaking, love
All the speaker communicates is rooted in love.
I've been adjusting
The speaker adapts and tries to trust.
Learning to trust
But finding trust is more challenging than anticipated.
But it's harder than I thought
Despite efforts, it's proving difficult to build trust.
You speak words of affirmation
The listener offers affirming words that impact the speaker.
I feel guilty
The speaker feels remorse or burdened by the listener's positivity.
You're frustrated
The listener's frustration affects the speaker.
I've been in love before
The speaker has experienced love in the past.
And I just do not have the fight
They lack the strength to fight against similar experiences of pain.
That's why I keep you close
Similar to line 10, the speaker hides their pain by keeping the listener close.
So no one else can know
They conceal their personal anguish from others.
The pain I own
The pain belongs solely to the speaker and is an integral part of them.
It's all mine and I try
The speaker acknowledges ownership of their pain and tries to manage it.
But I cannot let it go
Despite efforts, the pain remains unrelenting and hard to release.
That's why I keep you close
Similar to lines 10 and 24, hiding personal suffering by keeping the listener close.
The pain I own
Reiteration of the speaker's sole possession of their pain.
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