Lyrics
Dear Diary
Expressing a personal reflection or narration addressed to a diary.
My father died last week
Revealing the recent death of the speaker's father.
Didn't hear till today yo I couldn't believe
Realizing the news of the father's death today, expressing disbelief.
But yet oddly no tears was shed
Not experiencing tears despite the father's death, indicating emotional numbness.
But now all these thoughts just swirl in my head
Reflecting on swirling thoughts in the speaker's mind after the father's death.
Time oh God the time wasted
Expressing regret about time wasted, possibly on strained relationships.
Time we can't get back so we can't waste it
Highlighting the irreversible nature of time and the importance of not wasting it.
I wasted years of not mending the fence
Regretting years spent without repairing a broken relationship (the fence).
In my defense he didn't try hard enough
Justifying the speaker's actions by suggesting the father didn't try hard enough.
I gave up on the answers so long ago
Abandoning the search for answers a long time ago.
Still don't understand though I'm a lil more old
Despite aging, still struggling to comprehend the father's actions.
I know he didn't leave
Clarifying that the father didn't physically leave but emotionally departed.
That's another story
Indicating that the father's departure is a separate narrative or issue.
I wanna grieve but he ain't do nothing for me
Expressing a desire to grieve, hindered by the father's lack of positive impact.
I'm older now
Acknowledging the speaker's older age, nearing forty.
Closer to forty
Contemplating family and mental stability in light of the father's death.
I'm thinking bout a family and maintaining sanity
Feeling regretful but not necessarily sad about missed opportunities.
I don't feel sad but I feel regret
Expressing the potential effort that could have been made for reconciliation.
I could of made the effort had a sit down over bevs
Reflecting on the missed chance for closure over a drink or conversation.
Closure even if we didn't get closer
Regretting the absence of further opportunities as the father is now gone.
But now he's gone and I can't
Expressing finality and the lack of chances or hope for answers due to death.
No more chances or hope for answers
Highlighting the impact of the father's death on the family tree.
Gone from my tree a couple more branches
Acknowledging the difficulty of dealing with death as a draining experience.
Death is a hard experience
Wishing to turn back time and undo the effects of the father's death.
Draining on the mind bringing body weariness
Expressing the desire to communicate with the father before it's too late.
I wish I could turn back the hands on the clock
Blaming death for robbing the speaker of an opportunity for reconciliation.
And pick up the phone
Blaming pride for robbing the speaker of the chance to mend the relationship.
And say let's talk
Pondering the unfairness of life and questioning why these hardships occur.
Dear death you robbed me
Accepting the irreversible nature of time and the need to live with regrets.
Dear pride you robbed me
Reiterating the impact of death on the speaker's chance for closure.
Dear life why me
Reiterating the impact of pride on the speaker's chance for reconciliation.
Can't turn back time
Questioning the reasons behind the hardships faced in life.
Gotta live with regrets
Accepting the inability to reverse time and emphasizing the need to live with regrets.
Dear death you robbed me
Reiterating the impact of death on the speaker's chance for closure.
Dear pride you robbed me
Reiterating the impact of pride on the speaker's chance for reconciliation.
Dear life why me
Questioning the reasons behind the hardships faced in life.
Can't turn back time
Accepting the inability to reverse time and emphasizing the need to live with regrets.
Gotta live with regrets I guess
Reiterating the acceptance of living with regrets despite the desire for change.
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