Lyrics
Not so often now do I feel
Expression of infrequent emotional experiences
The cold that's so familiar
Reference to a familiar cold feeling
Come creeping back on lonely nights
Describing the return of the familiar cold feeling on lonely nights
It feels as if I'm slowly taking control
Sensation of gaining control, possibly over emotions
But then again, who knows?
Expressing uncertainty about the perceived control
Am I even in control?
Questioning personal control and agency
Over and over again
Repetition of experiences or feelings
Why is it that when I'm moving forward
Ruminating on the paradox of moving forward but facing setbacks
I'm pulled into the wrong direction?
Feeling diverted from intended path or goals
As I lose myself, I start to trace my steps
Reflecting on losing oneself and retracing steps
I can't do this again
Expressing reluctance to repeat a negative experience
I'm fucking sick of feeling like
Strong displeasure about a recurring emotion
I need to prove myself
Pressure to prove oneself to others
What is it that I'm even trying to prove?
Questioning the purpose or goal of self-validation
I need some closure, I need to move forward
Desire for closure and progress
I need to prove to myself I'm not
Striving to overcome past vulnerabilities
That fragile boy I once was
Recognition of past fragility and vulnerability
But your name is pulling me down
External influence (name) causing emotional weight
With the weight of four years
Association of a name with a significant time period
Pulling me down i thought I was past this
Feeling dragged down despite thinking one has moved past it
But surely, I'm not so sure
Expressing uncertainty about personal progress
I thought I was past this
Acknowledging previous belief in personal growth
I thought I was past this
Repeating the realization of not being past certain struggles
I want to throw it away
Desire to discard something troubling
But it can't end this way
Unwillingness to end a situation abruptly
I thought I'd broken these chains
Belief in breaking free from constraints, yet they persist
But it will always remain
Recognition of enduring challenges or burdens
Now rest my tired eyes
Expressing a need for rest, possibly from mental strain
I need a rest from my fucking mind
Reiterating the need for a break from mental distress
I'm fucking sick of feeling like
Repetition of dissatisfaction with self-validation
I need to prove myself
Pressure to prove oneself, echoing earlier sentiments
What is it that I'm even trying to prove?
Reflecting on the purpose and meaning of self-validation
I need some closure, I need to move forward
Reiteration of the desire for closure and progress
I need a rest from my fucking mind
Repeating the need for a break from mental distress
I'm fucking sick of feeling like
Recurrence of dissatisfaction with self-validation
I need to prove myself
Persistent pressure to prove oneself, as expressed before
It's time to rest my tired eyes
Declaring the necessity to rest from mental fatigue
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