Tightrope
Tightrope of Inner Struggle: A Battle with Darkness
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Fighting with violence on my mind,
Fighting with violent thoughts, struggling with inner turmoil.
Thoughts I can't define tell me I'm waiting here to die,
Unclear thoughts suggest a sense of purposelessness and waiting for an inevitable end.
Running out of time I find myself wondering,
Feeling a sense of urgency and running out of time, prompting self-reflection.
Why try when every ending is in sight?
Questioning the value of trying when every outcome seems predetermined.
Maybe I'm just scared to grow,
Possibly hesitant to embrace change and personal growth.
Too afraid of letting go,
Fearful of releasing control and facing the unknown.
And I confess I'm so alone,
Admitting to loneliness and vulnerability.
I'm on a tightrope, scared to die young.
Expressing a feeling of being on the edge, fearing an early death.
Every color fades to gray,
Describing a loss of vibrancy and enthusiasm in life.
As the feeling fades away,
Emphasizing the gradual fading of emotions.
And I confess I've dug my grave,
Acknowledging personal mistakes and the consequences.
I'm on a tightrope, scared to die young.
Reiterating the fear of an early death while walking a precarious path.
Now I'm ashamed what I gave then was not enough,
Regretting that what was given in the past was insufficient.
I'm not the same as the day that I'm talking of,
Noticing a significant change in oneself over time.
But I'm aware that I'm barely just hanging on,
Acknowledging a precarious situation, barely holding on.
I see my shame in the darkness I'm running from.
Recognizing shame in the darkness of one's past.
And I find myself wondering, why try when I'm on the edge of a knife?
Questioning the worth of trying when faced with a life-threatening situation.
And now it's clear I've come undone,
Realizing a state of unraveling or falling apart.
We said that what's done is done,
Accepting that certain actions cannot be undone.
And I'm aware I'm drawing blood,
Awareness of causing harm or damage, possibly to oneself.
To settle what I've become.
Engaging in self-destructive behavior to address the consequences of one's actions.
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