Pleasure and Pain
Navigating the Maze of Emotions: Baseball Gregg's Pleasure and Pain
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As soon as I get I home
Expressing the routine of returning home
I pack a bowl of weed
Preparing and smoking marijuana
And I get in the zone
Entering a focused state of mind
I pick a tone
Selecting a musical tone
Play a melody
Playing a musical melody
But this much weed
Acknowledging excessive marijuana use
It’s not good for me
Reflecting on the negative effects of excessive weed consumption
Every night I lay awake
Insomnia and watching TV until sunrise
And watch TV until the sunrise
Questioning one's existence
Am I alive?
Uncertainty about being alive
I feel dead
Feeling emotionally numb or detached
Looks like, once again
Repeatedly getting trapped in one's thoughts
I’m stuck in my head
Being stuck in a cycle of overthinking
Take the bus
Engaging in mundane activities like taking the bus
Eat my lunch
Eating lunch with a sense of detachment
Keep my eyes shut so tight
Shutting out the world and pretending
Pretend all god damn night
Pretending throughout the night
I can’t explain why I feel this way
Unable to explain the emotions experienced
Must be chemicals in my brain
Attributing emotions to chemical imbalance
Take my pills and pray they go away
Seeking relief through medication
I wish that I could feel
Expressing a desire to feel something
Anything at all
A sense of emotional numbness or apathy
Could be pleasure
Yearning for either pleasure or pain
Or pain
Exploring the dichotomy of emotional experiences
In the morning my alarm goes off
Beginning of the day with an alarm
I turn it off
Choosing to ignore the alarm and stay in bed
And stay in bed
Emphasizing a carefree attitude
No need to fret
Having another chance or opportunity
I have another set
Having a backup plan or routine
Cause when I’m waking up
Indifference upon waking up
I don’t give a fuck
Choosing to go back to sleep
I go back to sleep and dream that
Escaping reality through dreams
I am living in another place
Imagining a different and distant life
Another life
Fantasy of a life far away from current struggles
So far away
Expressing the desire to avoid waking up
Fuck I have to wake
Reluctance to face another day
Live another day
Resuming the daily routine with resignation
I get dressed
Getting dressed and making an effort
Try my best
Putting on a facade of trying to be okay
Clench my jaw shut so tight
Physically expressing inner tension
Pretend that I’m alright
Pretending to be fine despite struggles
I wish that I didn’t feel this way
Desiring not to feel the current emotional state
High anxiety and migraines
Mentions of high anxiety and migraines
Take my pills and pray they go away
Turning to medication for relief
I wish that I could feel
Expressing a longing to experience something
Anything at all
A sense of emotional numbness or apathy
Could be pleasure
Yearning for either pleasure or pain
Or pain
Reiteration of the desire for intense emotions
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