Rainless Storm
Rainless Storm: Battling Inner Doubt
Lyrics
You see they're thoughtless,
Expressing that others are thoughtless.
Yet so remorseless;
Highlighting the lack of remorse in those mentioned.
A silent force.
Describing a powerful but silent force.
A culmination of my own creation
Acknowledging the consequences of personal choices.
and one that I ignore until I...
Ignoring the consequences until a realization hits.
Find I'm living with the lies in my head
Living with self-deception and lies in one's mind.
Daily focussing on things never said.
Focus on unspoken thoughts in daily life.
It's a dangerous zone and I'm on my own
Describing a dangerous emotional state while being alone.
As I run through a rainless storm.
Navigating through a challenging situation metaphorically described as a "rainless storm."
The truth is I don't believe in what I do,
Expressing a lack of belief in one's actions.
Can't trust in myself to pull me through
Lack of self-trust to overcome challenges.
Scared to open my eyes and recognise
Fear of facing reality and acknowledging personal issues.
A mass of self-destruction; a me I compromise.
Compromising one's true self for destructive behaviors.
It's the D O U B T silently consuming all the best of me.
Doubt silently consuming the best aspects of the person.
As it swallows me tonight, I can't fight.
Being overwhelmed by doubt and unable to resist.
As I've found I'm living with the lies in my head
Continuation of living with self-deception and lies.
Daily focussing on things never said.
Continued focus on unspoken thoughts in daily life.
It's a dangerous zone and I'm on my own
Reiteration of a dangerous emotional state while being alone.
Running through a rainless storm.
Repeating the metaphor of navigating through a challenging situation.
It's me the one creating silent rulers of mind
The person is the creator of silent rulers of the mind.
It's something deep within and something I've designed
Acknowledging a deep-seated issue within and self-design of the problem.
I'm not resigned to the system but the one that I'm resisting
Resisting a system but acknowledging personal responsibility.
Trying to find a deeper meaning, see whatever it's consisting.
Searching for a deeper meaning and understanding of personal struggles.
It's just a way for me to mask a feeling, but I confess;
Using a mask to conceal true feelings but admitting to it.
There's other part of me that it's concealing.
Acknowledging the existence of hidden aspects of oneself.
Like I don't put my hand up when I'm fussed and when I'm stressed
Not expressing distress in certain situations.
So I spend the evening lying on the floor when I'm depressed.
Choosing passive coping mechanisms during times of depression.
But what's the point, if I don't believe in myself?
Raising questions about the purpose when lacking self-belief.
And from time to time I consider my doubt a stolen wealth
Considering doubt as a valuable but stolen possession.
It got me at gunpoint but it hides well and it's pure stealth
Describing the elusive and stealthy nature of doubt.
And if I'm seeing reason I know to consider my mental health.
Linking doubt to self-awareness and mental health.
Cuz I'm tired of living with the lies in my head
Expressing weariness of living with self-deception and lies.
And of daily focussing on things never said.
Continued focus on unspoken thoughts in daily life.
It's a dangerous zone and I'm on my own;
Reiteration of a dangerous emotional state while being alone.
Running through a rainless storm.
Repeating the metaphor of navigating through a challenging situation.
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