Lyrics
My visions fading as my body's contemplating whether or not to keep pressing on
Contemplating the continuation of life, uncertain whether to persist.
And in this moment there's no option but to own it and hope that this time it wont last long
Owning the current situation, hoping it's temporary.
My mind is racing as my eyelids fall
Mind racing, eyelids falling, indicating internal turmoil.
Retrace my steps to where I lost it all now
Reflecting on past mistakes and losses, retracing steps.
I don't need your help
Rejecting assistance, possibly due to a desire for self-reliance.
The world outside is hell
Describing the external world as challenging and difficult.
I'm not going anywhere
Commitment to staying in the current state.
I'm not doing anything
Passive stance, not engaging in any activities.
'Cause it's me against the world until the day you go extinct
Expressing a sense of isolation, facing the world alone.
Now I'm spending all my time lighting fires in my brain
Using time for destructive thoughts, metaphorically lighting fires in the brain.
But my misery made me feel something so I stayed
Choosing to endure misery because it evokes emotions.
I burned my bridges now I keep digging more ditches and the fires all that's left for me
Burning bridges and creating more problems, with fires as the only solace.
I was afraid but now I'm feeding off the shame and I'll admit this is the only way
Transforming fear into a source of strength, acknowledging a chosen path.
Tearing the house down brick by brick
Symbolic act of deconstructing one's life, tearing down what was built.
'Cause what I built makes me sick
Disgust with the past creations, a desire to escape reality.
I don't want to face my reality
Reluctance to confront and accept the current situation.
I know this is how it has to be
Acknowledging the inevitability of the chosen path.
So what's the point in living all alone
Questioning the purpose of living in isolation.
I hear the voices and I see the ghosts inside my home
Hallucinations and inner struggles manifesting within the home.
Tell me to listen but the story's old
Resisting advice, tired of giving attention to familiar narratives.
I'm sick of giving my attention
Awareness of the predictable outcome, knowing how the story unfolds.
I know how it unfolds
Reiteration of tearing down the constructed life.
Tearing the house down brick by brick
Continuation of the destructive process.
'Cause what I built makes me sick
Reiterating the discomfort with personal creations.
I don't want to face my reality
Resistance to facing the harsh reality.
I know this is how it has to be
Acceptance of the necessity of the current situation.
I'm not going anywhere
Reaffirmation of commitment to staying in the current state.
I'm not doing anything
Reiteration of the passive stance, not engaging in activities.
'Cause it's me against the world until the day you go extinct
Emphasizing the battle against the world until a personal end.
Now I'm spending all my time lighting fires in my brain
Continuation of using time for destructive thoughts.
But my misery made me feel something so I stayed
Enduring misery for the emotions it brings.
And when you ask if I'm okay
Dismissive response to inquiries about well-being.
I've gotta laugh in your face
Rejecting concern with laughter, possibly masking true feelings.
And I'm spending all my time lighting fires in my brain
Repeating the pattern of destructive thoughts.
But my misery made me feel something so I stayed
Reiterating the acceptance of misery for the emotions it evokes.
My mind is racing as my eyelids fall
Repeating the description of internal turmoil.
retrace my steps to where I lost it all now
Revisiting the past and retracing steps to losses.
I don't need your help
Declining external help, emphasizing independence.
The world outside is hell
Reiterating the challenging nature of the external world.
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