Lyrics
Came from a dark place with heartaches that shit controlled me
Came from a difficult place with emotional pain that used to control me.
Lock these doors before I doze off that's paranoia
Locking doors before sleeping due to paranoia.
In my vision I'm seeing death but don't know if it's coming
Experiencing visions of death but uncertain if it's imminent.
And if it is just know I'm ready no more running from it
Prepared for death and not running away from it if it comes.
How I go from telling you all of me to not telling you a single thing
Transitioned from openness to silence in sharing personal information.
Diamonds they shine bright but still don't notice me
Despite shining brightly like diamonds, feeling unnoticed.
Granny I'm breaking down they draining me slowly
Expressing emotional breakdown, feeling drained, likely referring to the grandmother.
Changing everyday but they want the old me
Undergoing changes, but others desire the old version of the person.
And I won't give it to them tell me why I started I change my path
Resisting pressure to revert to the old self and questioning the reason for change.
No more making music came up from the bottom my role models
Stopped making music, influenced by negative role models.
Was a bad influence perfection don't exist but I still try cause I'm afraid of losing
Recognizing the absence of perfection but still striving due to fear of loss.
Hard times got used to it smiling bright while I'm going through it
Adapting to challenging times while maintaining a positive facade.
This ain't even me fighting with my heart
Feeling a disconnect with oneself, struggling internally.
Cause I'm addicted to it Tre just dropped another song
Expressing addiction to the emotional turmoil through the mention of a new song.
Sad shit that's all he all
Describing the content of the recent song as sad.
If they ain't standing with me then fuck the world
If others don't support, disregarding the world and choosing solitude.
They can leave me lone
Willing to be alone if others abandon.
I say momma I don't want no heartbreaks
Expressing a desire to avoid emotional pain to the mother.
Since that day I lost my mind I ain't been the same
Changed after a traumatic event and struggling to regain normalcy.
I still be waiting to hear your voice but I don't hear a thing
Longing to hear a loved one's voice but facing silence.
They come around just to leave I know it's all the same
Expecting people to leave, acknowledging the predictability of relationships.
If I ain't good enough then leave or better yet I'll go and find my peace
If not valued, willing to leave or find peace independently.
Searching day and night for something that's probably right in
Searching persistently for something elusive, possibly overlooking the obvious.
front of my feet
The solution may be right in front, but difficulty in recognizing it.
Look in the mirror and I see fear but the only person there is me
Confronting fear when looking in the mirror, realizing it's a personal battle.
They gonna drain me till I'm gone my god I'm begging on my knees
Expecting emotional exhaustion and seeking protection through prayer.
Like protect my brothers my twin and my sisters
Expressing concern for siblings and recognizing the unpredictability of life.
I know the reaper playing dirty I won't compete if he winning
Acknowledging the uncertainty of fate and refusing to compete unfairly.
Stand on top of all this shit then leave it all to my children
Aspiring to overcome challenges and leave a legacy for future generations.
They gonna hate me either way so I say fuck how they feeling
Choosing authenticity over concern for others' opinions.
I say momma I don't want no heartbreaks
Reiterating the desire to avoid emotional pain to the mother.
Since that day I lost my mind I ain't been the same
Continuing the struggle after a mental breakdown.
I still be waiting to hear your voice but I don't hear a thing
Yearning to hear a loved one's voice despite the ongoing silence.
They come around just to leave I know it's all the same
Expecting people to leave, acknowledging the predictability of relationships.
I know it's all the same
Reiterating the idea that people leaving is a common occurrence.
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