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cnd I just smoke all day & drink all night, I'm fallin
The persona spends their days smoking and nights drinking, feeling a sense of decline or downfall.
cnd I don't know no other way, thats why I'm fallin,
They don't know any other lifestyle, which contributes to their sense of decline.
I go a long long way, left right back where I've fallin,
Despite efforts to move forward, they end up back where they started, feeling a sense of regression.
cnd I just smoke all night and drink all day,
Reiterating their routine of smoking at night and drinking during the day.
Every rap I make is so depressing,
Their music tends to carry a melancholic tone.
I suppose it's cuz I'm stressing,
They believe their music reflects their stress and worries.
But what for? My life is nothing but a blessing,
Despite acknowledging their life as blessed, they question the purpose of their struggles.
c wonderful family that raised me correctly, indeed
They appreciate their family's positive influence on their upbringing.
c job that brings in the doe,
They have a job that provides income but feel exhausted from its monotony.
But I've been workin there so long I'm sick of the show,
Feeling weary and uninterested in their long-standing job.
cnd ain't met a single girl, most in my hood are hoes,
Expressing disappointment in the quality of relationships in their neighborhood.
When I travel far? Is when I feel like I'm spose to,
They feel a sense of purpose and belonging when far away from their usual environment.
cway from it all, everything that I love,
Being away causes a rush of emotions related to the things they love.
Comes rushing down like 74 angels from above,
Emphasizing a profound emotional experience akin to a spiritual revelation.
When you was born, you didn't know how to love,
Reflection on the innate nature of humans—learning to love is acquired rather than inherent.
It's something that your taught, if not you fell to the drug,
Suggesting that without learning love, one might fall into destructive habits.
cmbition got me feelin like, I'll awake,
Ambition drives them to believe in a timely awakening or success.
Just in the nick of time as if to seal my fate,
They feel a close call to a significant change or event in their life.
c couple seconds longer and I woulda stopped breathin,
Reflecting on a moment where they narrowly escaped a dire situation.
Homie told me I went limp and then my head hit the cement,
Recollection of a moment of physical harm during an incident.
cnd I just smoke all day & drink all night, I'm fallin
Reiteration of their cycle of smoking and drinking leading to a sense of decline.
cnd I don't know no other way, thats why I'm fallin,
Reaffirmation of being stuck in a lifestyle they don't know how to change.
I go a long long way, left right back where I've fallin,
Despite efforts, they end up back where they started, feeling stuck.
cnd I just smoke all night and drink all day,
Restating their routine of smoking at night and drinking during the day.
Butterflies in my stomach? Not as of late,
They no longer experience nervousness or excitement.
I shoot anxiety in the heart with a line of that white,
Using a substance to cope with anxiety.
Never thought that I'd go down that road,
Surprised at their own descent into a problematic habit.
But Ima fiend, and shoulda fuckin known, before my mind explodes
Realization of their addictive tendencies and the need for control.
Let me resurface, I'm crude to the core
Describing themselves as rough and unrefined at the core.
I'm hard to thrill, nothin really moves me anymore,
Feeling desensitized and unaffected by experiences.
I'm an old soul with a cold heart, I been done wrong and I won't start
Emphasizing their past hurts and the resulting emotional detachment.
With the pain and the misery, always a company, momma used to play me Mozart
They find solace in music, a coping mechanism taught by their mother.
To get me to sleep, I was restless as hell,
As a child, they struggled to find rest, portraying a troubled past.
The doctors told my parents, your boy, he's a hell in a cell,
Doctors labeled them as hyperactive or restless.
Tha c.D.c.D.H.D., high defend to a degree
Referencing ADHD and its impact on their life.
My teachers thought I would fail, but a few got me to see,
Some teachers doubted their potential while a few recognized their abilities.
I know I'm smarter than most, it's why see thing so differently,
Belief in their intellect, feeling misunderstood by others.
I'll be out on the coast, I care less for your sympathy then you ever could know,
They value independence and are uninterested in receiving sympathy.
Thought we were brothers alike, how could you do that to your wife,
Expressing betrayal by someone they thought was similar to them.
cnd I just smoke all day & drink all night, I'm fallin
Reiterating their lifestyle of smoking and drinking leading to a sense of decline.
cnd I don't know no other way, thats why I'm fallin,
Feeling stuck in a repetitive lifestyle without knowing an alternative.
I go a long long way, left right back where I've fallin,
Despite attempts to progress, they end up back where they started, feeling trapped.
cnd I just smoke all night and drink all day,
Repeating their routine of smoking at night
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