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Journey of Redemption: Battling Inner Demons and Embracing Change
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My thoughts begin to rattle as I'm caught up in this battle/
Feeling mentally unsettled as I'm engaged in a conflict
Preparing myself for the longest of all travels/
Preparing for a journey that will be the longest
Depression anxiety guilt yea I have it/
Experiencing feelings of depression, anxiety, and guilt
For this trip I'm carrying a whole lot of baggage/
Carrying a significant amount of emotional baggage for this trip
Nobody can match it this life I thought I could hack it/
Believing that nobody can understand the weight of this life
The way that I attacked it could have used a different tactic/
Realizing that different strategies could have been used in dealing with life's challenges
I'm finally sobering up and getting my mind right/
Achieving sobriety and focusing on mental well-being
As I'm driving my rear view turns into hindsight/
Reflecting on the past as I drive forward
Started seeing the people I turned a blind eye to/
Starting to notice and acknowledge people I previously ignored
The people I mistreated, took for granted and lied to/
Recognizing those I mistreated, took advantage of, and lied to
I was naïve tryna share fame with friends/
Naively attempting to share my success with friends
And for thinking things could be the same again/
Realizing things can't return to how they once were
If I really love them then I guess it's worth a try/
Considering whether it's worth trying to reconcile if I genuinely love them
They have no idea what I sacrificed to bring a verse to life/
Others are unaware of the sacrifices made for my music
Let alone a whole song or an album/
Recognition that people won't understand the effort put into creating songs or albums
They will never comprehend the value of these valliums/
They won't grasp the value of the struggle and emotional toll (possibly a reference to "Valiums")
I know it's not right but I'm texting and driving/
Engaging in risky behavior by texting while driving due to rush, depression, and a sense of dying inside
I'm in a rush plus I'm depressed and I'm dying/
Feeling ignored by others while internally struggling
I've been dying for months nobody seems to give a shit/
Sensing a lack of concern from others while dealing with personal issues
Their only concern was that I continue to give them hits/
Others are only interested in benefiting from my success
In music you heal your wounds when you reopen them/
Music reopens emotional wounds, and how one copes with them is crucial
What you do after that is how you cope with them/
Handling emotional wounds after reopening them is key
But see back when I got on I didn't know it then/
Not realizing the implications of success earlier, evidenced by reliance on medication and alcohol
The proof is in this medicine cabinet and open gin/
Using substances as a coping mechanism after close calls
A couple close calls lead to disconnection/
Life teaches difficult lessons through close encounters with danger
Life always seems to teach us the hardest lessons/
Feeling stressed when recognizing mistakes
When I knew what was wrong I started stressing/
Feeling refreshed to be on the journey back home
So this road back home is ever so refreshing/
Viewing receiving texts as a positive amidst difficulties
A couple of texts back now that's a real blessing/
Accepting that some people won't respond (being left on read) in such circumstances
Some people left me on read but that's to be expected/
Comparing oneself to a messenger trying to deliver a message in chaos
Think of yourself as a mailman in this wreckage/
Considering the lengths required to make others understand
How far are you willing to go for them to get the message/
I'm not where I wanna be I'm far from where I used to be/
Expressing frustration towards those who were once friendly but turned indifferent
Climate change I got heated at niggas who was cool with me/
Isolating oneself and continuing self-destructive behavior
Distanced myself and continued to act foolishly/
Being stubborn and having difficulty admitting mistakes
Stubborn is a language that I speak fluently/
Recognizing that acknowledging faults is a positive step
Admitting you're wrong is a start so things are going beautifully/
Realizing that old friends still remain despite the changes
Same people who used run with me from truancy/
Questioning self-love amidst receiving love from others
Are the same ones that's still there and that's true indeed/
Wondering about self-worth and the sincerity of self-love
Getting love but do I love myself im asking truthfully/
Reflecting on the struggle to love oneself truthfully
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