Lyrics
Wanted to hate you
Expressing a desire or intention to feel resentment towards someone.
The world goes by but mine comes to a stop
Feeling a sense of personal stagnation or emotional pause while the rest of the world continues.
My memory is being overloaded by you
Experiencing an overwhelming impact on memory caused by thoughts of the person.
And from the calculations I had never thought
Unexpected emotional outcomes contrary to previous expectations or calculations.
That this is what I would've had to go through
Reflecting on the unforeseen challenges and emotions resulting from the relationship.
I wanna see you stay
Expressing a desire for the person to remain in one's life.
But I know you don't look at me the same
Awareness of the disparity in feelings, understanding that the other person doesn't reciprocate in the same way.
And now I'm watching you walking away
Observing the painful act of the person walking away from the relationship.
It hurts to get up so I'll just lie in the rain
Choosing to remain in a state of emotional pain, metaphorically lying in the rain.
I wanted to hate you
Reiterating the initial desire or intention to harbor negative feelings.
I know it's selfish but I can't find a way
Acknowledging a sense of selfishness in being unable to find a way to stop thinking about the person.
To stop thinkin' about you
Struggling to cease thoughts about the person and their actions.
The things you do and the things you say
Reflecting on the impact of the person's actions and words.
You left me lying here
Feeling abandoned or left behind by the person.
I ask myself if you know just what you did
Questioning whether the person is aware of the consequences of their actions.
And what you didn't
Contemplating both the actions taken and those neglected by the person.
As you fade I wonder what it meant
Wondering about the significance of the person fading away from the speaker's life.
My mind's a mess and all the programs freeze
Describing the mental state as chaotic and experiencing a freeze in emotional responses.
This heart that made me I the pain and O the tears
Metaphorically expressing the emotional pain with reference to a program error.
And now there's errors in my .exe's
Noting disturbances or mistakes in personal experiences or emotions.
I think a power off is what I need
Suggesting a need for emotional shutdown or detachment.
I wanted to see you stay
Repeating the desire to see the person stay in the speaker's life.
But I knew you didn't look at me the same
Recognizing the lack of mutual feelings from the person.
And all I did was watch you walk away
Recalling the painful act of watching the person walk away.
It hurt to get up so I just lied in the rain
Choosing to remain in emotional pain, symbolically lying in the rain.
I wanted to hate you (wanted to hate you)
Reiteration of the initial desire or intention to harbor negative feelings.
I know it's selfish but I can't find a way
Reaffirming the selfish struggle to stop thinking about the person.
To stop thinkin' about you (thinkin' about you)
Continuing to grapple with persistent thoughts about the person and their actions.
The things you do and the things you say
Reflecting on the impact of the person's actions and words.
You left me lying here (left me lying here)
Reiterating the feeling of abandonment or being left behind by the person.
I ask myself if you know just what you did
Questioning whether the person is aware of the consequences of their actions.
And what you didn't
Contemplating both the actions taken and those neglected by the person.
As you fade I wonder what it meant
Wondering about the significance of the person fading away from the speaker's life.
I wanted to hate you
Reiteration of the initial desire or intention to harbor negative feelings.
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