SETTLE
Embracing Shadows: A Journey Through Inner Struggles
Lyrics
I think I found a better way to align
I've discovered a better approach to align myself.
What's real with what's in my mind
Trying to discern reality from my thoughts.
I had to be what I thought you see
I pretended to be what I thought you wanted to see.
But I see that's what I can't define
Realizing I can't define myself based on others' expectations.
A different world behind each pair of eyes
Each person sees a different world through their eyes.
So gimme more, just a gentle hand
Seeking more understanding, a gentle hand to guide.
To grasp and stall me where I stand
Wanting someone to stop and hold me in my tracks.
Then let me go into the dark below
Yearning to explore the unknown, the dark below.
I'm better off the less you know
Believing that I'm better off if you know less about me.
In your mind, you feel hallowed
You may feel a sense of emptiness in your mind.
I feel the darkness calling again
Sensing the return of darkness in my life.
I hear the demon laughing inside
Hearing the unsettling laughter of the inner demon.
The constant tension that's fucking with me
Dealing with constant tension and inner conflict.
Go back and forth between guilt and pride
Swinging between feelings of guilt and pride.
I feel alone when I'm skin and bone
Feeling isolated when I'm vulnerable and bare.
Waning flesh, I am cold as stone
Experiencing a sense of coldness and numbness.
I only feed on the blood I bleed
Surviving by consuming the pain I endure.
And I only use the words I need
Using only the words necessary, avoiding excess.
I will fail even if I concede
Expecting failure even if I admit defeat.
So try and settle me down
Requesting help to calm and stabilize me.
I know it all will work itself out
Believing that things will resolve themselves.
I can't take the way I make me feel
Struggling with the impact of my own actions on my emotions.
I've learned it's up to me just what is real
Understanding that I determine my own reality.
I feel my conscience burning again
Feeling the inner conflict intensify.
Like mental feedback ringing in fear
Experiencing mental feedback echoing with fear.
Another goddamn fucking excuse
Finding excuses to convince myself of imminent danger.
To tell myself that danger is near
Using excuses to reinforce a sense of threat.
So picture me framed in irony
Imagining myself in a situation full of irony.
Out of bounds within conformity
Being outside the norm but constrained by conformity.
You tell me yes, and I tell you no
Contradicting responses - you say yes, I say no.
Poison seeds of inhibitions grow
Seeds of self-doubt and restrictions taking root.
Maybe it's time to let go
Contemplating the need to let go of something.
So try and settle me down
Requesting assistance in calming and stabilizing.
And after all, what's the big fuss about
Questioning the significance of everything.
I can't take the way I make me feel
Struggling with the emotional impact of self-perception.
So then it's up to me how I'll heal
Recognizing that healing is a personal responsibility.
Everything's on me
Taking full responsibility for my actions and consequences.
Everything's on me
Acknowledging that the responsibility is solely mine.
The more I stay clean I'm filthy
Despite efforts to stay clean, feeling tainted.
'Cuz everything's on me, yeah
Accepting complete responsibility for everything.
So try and settle me down
Seeking assistance in finding calmness and stability.
And after all, what's the big fuss about
Questioning the significance of everything once again.
I can't fake the way I make me feel
Struggling with the authenticity of my own emotions.
So then it's up to me how I'll heal
Recognizing that the path to healing is my own responsibility.
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