Famke
Struggling Shadows: Embracing Life's Twists and Turns
Lyrics
I picked it up. I held it. I threw it away. I strayed.
I took hold of something, examined it, discarded it, and deviated from the path.
By far one of the dumbest things I've done to myself.
One of the foolish actions I've taken that affected myself negatively.
No embracement of the truth, it's gone.
Refusal to accept the truth, acknowledging that it's lost.
Progress unwound. Ideals shut down.
Regress in progress, and the shutting down of ideals.
Pin it on me. Take me away.
Blaming myself for the situation, willing to be taken away.
I'm guilty as charged. You can call out.
Admitting guilt and openness to scrutiny.
This is my forceful vice struggling to gain some life.
Describing a strong inner struggle seeking vitality.
Sometimes when you live with something for so long you can't break it,
Difficulty breaking a long-standing pattern or habit.
can't put it down, can't walk away.
Being unable to detach from or abandon a persistent issue.
Beauty in my mind defined by images shot into my mind.
Defining beauty in the mind influenced by external images.
Brain scan. Observe the man I am.
Reflecting on a brain scan, examining one's own identity.
Look at my hands. I'm trembling at the mistakes I live.
Expressing physical trembling due to past mistakes.
One day I'm awake. The next day I'm dead.
Fluctuating between wakefulness and a sense of spiritual death.
This is not real. This I know.
Acknowledging a surreal experience, understanding it's not real.
But it calls on me. How does this work?
Feeling compelled by something inexplicable, questioning its nature.
It's so fucking twisted. It takes me away.
Describing a twisted and overwhelming force taking control.
It sweeps me off my feet. I know how this goes.
Being swept off one's feet, familiar with the experience.
I've dealt with this before. Day one, liquefy my life.
Having dealt with similar situations before, describing a challenging start.
Take my insides out. Hang them on a wall.
Metaphorically disassembling oneself, exposing vulnerabilities.
The beauty. Self-security works itself into a hole.
Acknowledging the internal conflict affecting self-security.
But I can feel the cold from here.
Sensing the coldness despite self-assurance.
And I know it's cold.
Recognizing and confirming the presence of a cold atmosphere.
Blisters ravaged my life.
Describing the damaging effects of past experiences.
The life that I claimed back.
Reclaiming and transforming one's life.
Turned it around.
Turning life around after facing challenges.
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